Guest guest Posted December 15, 2007 Report Share Posted December 15, 2007 Hi ..........you are SOOOOOOOOOO not alone! I can vouch for this feeling 110%. Most days, I feel like a completely different person than the one I was (and still am on the occasional 'good' day). I was the " go to " girl, for everything, from friends and family members when they were in a jam or needed help, to the 'go to' girl at work, ie: copy machine jammed, computer problems, not to mention my actual JOB!!! LOL....then throw in a wife and mother on top of that? Holy Cow!!!! I have days now that are so overwhelming, I just want out of my life completely! Not suicide mind you, but just to run away and start over somewhere where no one knows the 'previous' me. I feel it has a lot to do with so much in our systems are completely out of whack.......I don't really know..........maybe it's because we feel so out of control with these diseases? So many changes that we aren't prepared for and it finally comes to a breaking point? Emotionally, I just crack, break down at the most insignificant things in reality, but when it hits you, at that time, it seems ENORMOUS! I think " one more thing and it will do me in! " The only way I can deal with it is to remember that tomorrow will be better. When I am emotionally stronger, I realize how small that thing was that triggered me and I chalk it up to the intense pressure we feel to be ourselves, our OLD selves. How badly I want to be back there.....and occasionally, I get to visit that old self of mine, that strong self that can handle anything!!! It feels good, but I know it's just temporary, but I still enjoy it while it lasts and can appreciate how strong I really am, underneath all this! I hope this all made sense to you - I guess I'm just agreeing that my emotions are all over the place now, not like before these illnesses. Take care and Peace, STL Jane --------------------------------- Be a better friend, newshound, and know-it-all with Yahoo! Mobile. Try it now. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 15, 2007 Report Share Posted December 15, 2007 You are not alone in that . I am going through it myself right at this moment. In fact, I'm on my way to talk to my pastor to try and get some of it off my chest so hopefully I'll be able to cope a little better. I'm so tired and in so much pain right now that I'm ready to break down. And when you add the other stressors in my life it makes it even worse. So yes, others go through emotional fragility. I think for me when my pain and fatigue levels are extremely high that my emotional state becomes even more fragile. Bel Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 15, 2007 Report Share Posted December 15, 2007 Yes , I do feel emotionally frail. I think that has a lot to do with the fatigue. The less energy reserve I have the less I can deal with anything and that goes for emotional responses to people as well. Also, knowing I have to justify to folks that I am ill makes me more fragile as well as I am on the defensive from the start. Sandrea Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 15, 2007 Report Share Posted December 15, 2007 Re: " Do some of you with CFS/ME/FBS find yourselves emotionally fragile from time to time. Do you find yourself just worn down and not having the energy to cope with difficult people or situations that you'd under normal circumstances would not have trouble handling? Do you feel frail and vulnerable? Just need to know that I'm not alone. -- " ------------------------- Absolutely. To me CFS is being rundown, permanantly. When anyone has the flu or a bad virus we're crabby and cry easily, or for the stoics, at least very emotional and touchy. No, I can't handle drama, either. And, I know it's time to go to bed when even the commercials are upsetting to me in a noisy way. The pounding feeling of the bombastic voices or music is actually painful, like someone poking me repeatedly. It is someone pounding. But, it's the sound beating on me. I'm sure others will attest to their own inability to handle emotional stuff or noise. Engel " Eternal vigilance is the price of liberty " -Ida B. Wells in her autobiography Crusade for Justice Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 15, 2007 Report Share Posted December 15, 2007 I always love reading your posts Jane! They are always so articulate and inspiring! I just wanted to take a minute to thank you for that!! Gentle Hugs --- Jane wrote: > Hi ..........you are SOOOOOOOOOO not alone! > I can vouch for this feeling 110%. Most days, I > feel like a completely different person than the one > I was (and still am on the occasional 'good' day). > I was the " go to " girl, for everything, from friends > and family members when they were in a jam or needed > help, to the 'go to' girl at work, ie: copy machine > jammed, computer problems, not to mention my actual > JOB!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 17, 2007 Report Share Posted December 17, 2007 In the past two years I have been under tremendous stress. My husband went for a colonoscopy at that time and DR. perforated his bowel. The next night he was in emergency surgery with peritonitis and his bowels on his tummy, forgive the grossness.) Four days later he had pneumonia and in wee hours of the a.m. had a heart attack. A month later he had open heart surgery, had 5 blocked arteries. A couple of days after Christmas that same year my granddaughter was in a terrible auto accident. Took the jaws of life to get her out of SUV. Her heart stopped twice and when she got to the hospital she had 3 fractures in her skull, a broken neck and back, all ribs on left side broken, broken collar bone, etc. Three weeks later I got a call from my other granddaughter telling me my son was diagnosed with Lymphoma. I didn't mean to bore you with all the details but wanted you to know I KNOW there definitely is emotional fragility with these damed diseases. Since all this began I have been in bed more then out. Before then I was able to get up and out once in a while. The only good it did for me was that my family and friends now understand what happens or what the DD can cause. I love being told I look terrible and about 90 yrs old instead of, " gee, you look great!!!!! " lol. Healing hugs, Allie (To everyone on this board a very Happy Holiday and thank you for being there, don't know what I would do without you thru thess past couple of years.) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 17, 2007 Report Share Posted December 17, 2007 P.S. My husband is still with me and doing okay. My granddaughter has recovered very well and my son came thru chemo and radiation and is in remission. So my feeling is there is a GOD and some day he will help us! Allie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 18, 2007 Report Share Posted December 18, 2007 Good Lord Allie, I don't know how you survived all of what you have been through. I think a healthy person would have collapsed. I sure hope things are better now. Sandrea Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 18, 2007 Report Share Posted December 18, 2007 Good Lord Allie, I don't know how you survived all of what you have been through. I think a healthy person would have collapsed. I sure hope things are better now. Sandrea Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 18, 2007 Report Share Posted December 18, 2007 Sorry that you have been through so ooooo much stress. That would be too much EVEN for a healthy person. Long gone are the days when I used to hear " You look good. " I havent head that since about the early 1990's. Now I look like s***. Sometimes feel like I am 100 yrs. old. ( I will probably live that long and there still WON " T be a cure for CFIDS). LOL. You have been through so much that no longer you are back in bed. Stress is TERRIBLE for this illness. Hang in there. Diane allie70@... wrote: In the past two years I have been under tremendous stress. My husband went for a colonoscopy at that time and DR. perforated his bowel. The next night he was in emergency surgery with peritonitis and his bowels on his tummy, forgive the grossness.) Four days later he had pneumonia and in wee hours of the a.m. had a heart attack. A month later he had open heart surgery, had 5 blocked arteries. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 18, 2007 Report Share Posted December 18, 2007 Sorry that you have been through so ooooo much stress. That would be too much EVEN for a healthy person. Long gone are the days when I used to hear " You look good. " I havent head that since about the early 1990's. Now I look like s***. Sometimes feel like I am 100 yrs. old. ( I will probably live that long and there still WON " T be a cure for CFIDS). LOL. You have been through so much that no longer you are back in bed. Stress is TERRIBLE for this illness. Hang in there. Diane allie70@... wrote: In the past two years I have been under tremendous stress. My husband went for a colonoscopy at that time and DR. perforated his bowel. The next night he was in emergency surgery with peritonitis and his bowels on his tummy, forgive the grossness.) Four days later he had pneumonia and in wee hours of the a.m. had a heart attack. A month later he had open heart surgery, had 5 blocked arteries. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 21, 2007 Report Share Posted December 21, 2007 Oh Allie you have been through so much…that would flatten a healthy person. These struggles are part of life, but us types do have such trouble coping with stress. Take it easy on yourself dear and I hope you too have a happy holiday, and a peaceful one. Aylwin xox _____ From: CFAlliance [mailto:CFAlliance ] On Behalf Of allie70@... Sent: Monday, December 17, 2007 12:59 PM To: CFAlliance Subject: Re:Emotional fragility In the past two years I have been under tremendous stress. My husband went for a colonoscopy at that time and DR. perforated his bowel. The next night he was in emergency surgery with peritonitis and his bowels on his tummy, forgive the grossness.) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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