I can't even think of a title

[Guest guest]

free, i found that the definition of co-dependancy really stumped me, i read

books and the more i knew the more i became confused. it was finally explained

to me in terms i could understand. co-dependancy is depending on anything

outside of yourself for happiness or self worth. i then understood that filling

myself with love from spirit, love from self, kept me from having unrealistic

expectations of people and also from filling myself with any vices. hopefully

this helps a little bit. if you cry for more than a couple of weeks, it's a

good reason to see a counselor but tears are cleansing. let it out. tiki

I can't even think of a title

I've been reading and not posting much. For once - it seems like I

don't have much to say.

I'm not making much progress on my co-dependence stuff. I thought I

was stronger - but that didn't last very long. I cried last night. I

cried today. Now I am kind of - I don't even know what I am. I

thought " numb " -but I'm sure numb would feel better than this.

I don't have any answers right now. Or questions really. I'm just

really tired.

I'm still rooting for those of you who are heading toward the light...

I'm just doing so a bit more quietly.

Free (wandering around in the dark...hoping to quit tripping over

things...and banging my shins now and then)

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[Guest guest]

I've been reading and not posting much. For once - it seems like I

don't have much to say.

I'm not making much progress on my co-dependence stuff. I thought I

was stronger - but that didn't last very long. I cried last night. I

cried today. Now I am kind of - I don't even know what I am. I

thought " numb " -but I'm sure numb would feel better than this.

I don't have any answers right now. Or questions really. I'm just

really tired.

I'm still rooting for those of you who are heading toward the light...

I'm just doing so a bit more quietly.

Free (wandering around in the dark...hoping to quit tripping over

things...and banging my shins now and then)

[Guest guest]

Hi Carol!

I did lots of crying too, and it was the best release! It's difficult

to see that now, but it's like a facial. It goes down deep and cleans

out the yuck. And like a facial, it often takes many treatments,

espeically if it's never been done before. This is our first real deep

nada-cleansing, so it takes awhile to get it all out.

Cry away!

Carol M

free_spirit_etc wrote:

> I'm not making much progress on my co-dependence stuff. I thought I

> was stronger - but that didn't last very long. I cried last night. I

> cried today. Now I am kind of - I don't even know what I am. I

> thought " numb " -but I'm sure numb would feel better than this.

>

> I don't have any answers right now. Or questions really. I'm just

> really tired.

>

> I'm still rooting for those of you who are heading toward the light...

> I'm just doing so a bit more quietly.

>

> Free (wandering around in the dark...hoping to quit tripping over

> things...and banging my shins now and then)

[Guest guest]

Thanks sunsh -

This definition of process seems to work best:

Process - a sustained phenomenon or one marked by gradual changes

through a series of states

I was really frustrated with myself because it seemed like I was

making progress - and then took some steps back. But most likely

those are also part of the process... 10 steps forward and then loop

back through the last five. I don't know.

I was thinking about the tiny steps the other day when I was walking

on the ice - about how it even seemed like I was taking tiny steps on

the ice - trying to be careful of my footing so I don't slip and

fall. But maybe even slipping is part of the process. It depends on

if you just lay there - crawl back to where you started - keep

sliding forward on your belly - or get up and walk again (being a bit

more careful about falling on the same spots).

Free

> > > Free (wandering around in the dark...hoping to quit tripping

over

> > things...and banging my shins now and then)

>

> Free: it's a process...it's a process....it's a process...

>

> wish I had a flashlight for ya, or some liquid sunshine hugz.

d.

[Guest guest]

---

Free,

Shin-banging is not necessarily a bad thing. It hurts, yeah, but

once you find your way through all the obstacles and arrive at the

lamp-post, then you KNOW you're okay. At least, that's what I'm

looking forward to. I sure hope it happens that way, 'cuz if it

doesn't, boy, am I EVER gonna get CRANKY!! lol! Keep reading and

posting when you feel like it. Sounds like you're as sanely crazy as

the rest of us!

Love and Blessings,

Tammy

In ModOasis , " free_spirit_etc " <free_spirit_etc@y...>

wrote:

> I've been reading and not posting much. For once - it seems like I

> don't have much to say.

>

> I'm not making much progress on my co-dependence stuff. I thought I

> was stronger - but that didn't last very long. I cried last night.

I

> cried today. Now I am kind of - I don't even know what I am. I

> thought " numb " -but I'm sure numb would feel better than this.

>

> I don't have any answers right now. Or questions really. I'm just

> really tired.

>

> I'm still rooting for those of you who are heading toward the

light...

> I'm just doing so a bit more quietly.

>

> Free (wandering around in the dark...hoping to quit tripping over

> things...and banging my shins now and then)