Re: THRESHOLD

[Guest guest]

I can relate completely, Free. Saturday began as a beautiful day,

some free time to get caught up with work - all good - then I got an

email about a ball I had dropped so to speak, and I just fell

apart. Suddenly everything was unmanageable. I tend to get very

updet when I have mada a mistake. I have trouble forgiving myself

and moving forward. Also, I think there is the trained response

from childhood that dropped balls and mistaked are highly criticized

and unforgiven. So, naturally panic sets in. I knew I was freaking

out, but I couldn't suppress it.

> I am becoming more and more aware of my thresholds right now. You

now

> that threshold point - where one instant you think everything is

> okay - not good, but okay. Then ONE more thing happens and you hit

> THRESHOLD. That's IT! Can't take any more right now.

>

> Right now I am in the middle of a super grading frenzy. Trying to

> catch up on the papers I have put off. I'm not quite sure if that

has

> lowered my threshold point - or just filled it up more. Probably

he

> latter.

>

> I remember hearing once that all our unfinished business takes up

> energy. While we still hold it in our mind as something needing to

be

> done or finished - it takes up energy. Even when we are doing

> absolutely nothing about it - it takes our energy. And in my

thinking

> right now - it keeps us closer to our threshold.

>

> So the unpolished kitchen sink (fly lady style) the ungraded

papers,

> the unmade calls... all of it takes energy.

>

> But then I was also thinking about how much unfinished business

KOs

> have - nada business, fada business, sibling business, self

> business... Whew!!!!!!! Seems like that pile of energy draining

> unfinished business would keep us about one step away from

threshold

> most of the time.

>

> And I am finding that the more I heal - the more I actually FEEL

the

> threshold when I get there.

>

> Wow!

>

> Free