- Heidi - Steve D.

[Guest guest]

Steve D. - You go girl...

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[FB] Yeah, same here. Thank you Heidi. I never had the thought of why

doesn't someone else notice and say something about this picking apart

almost everything I say, but as soon Heidi did I thought, well thank

goodness, there's at least one other person who sees this the way I

do. And

I realize that it's an example of how we love agreement and relish finding

someone who shares our story about the world. I guess that's just

where I'm

at. )

I know aren't shared agreements wonderful....when they happen, I

sometimes feel so validated...even though what I was in agreement

about was really insane - it did feel good to have others share my

craziness!

I welcome ANYTHING that will help me break through. When I stood in

front of and asked her why my childhood was so filled with

" abuse " , she simply replied - who am I to question your path to God?

For years I perceived " attack " from my mother. It was so obvious -

she picked, criticized and judged almost every move, event of my

childhood. So what did I do - I matched her energy, perceived attack

and attacked back.

When showed me that my mother was simply being who she was -

that's all there is - NOTHING she did was personal - big lesson. Now

her dialog hasn't changed - who I show up as with her is completely

shifted. I enjoy it all - UNTIL I pick up something she says and

begin to have a story that she is actually talking to me. Impossible!

I know that when I " attacked " my mother, I was asking her to be

different than who she was...how nutzoid is that? Like said, if

my mother knew a better way of being - don't cha think she would do it?

Will only those of you who are not confused in your thinking please

continue to post here????

You're where you are..I am where I am...Just as each one of us I am

doing EXACTLY what I do. I don't question anyone's path. I welcome

and look forward to me as I show up and you as I *perceive* you

showing up....Loving it all, Jan