Aggggghhhh Should One Scream or Just Punch Something...

[Guest guest]

Hi Everyone

Well I can honestly say I am not what

one would call HAPPY....... so which dwarf am I, at the moment I’d lean

towards P****d Off.... Mmmmmm but he wasn’t one of them, well he should have

been......I’m so trying hard to keep my sense of humour, and not lose the

plot totally, but it could well be a bit trying....

You may all remember, that since

Thailand, I’ve had that recurrent chest infection and problems with

breathing and wheezing, that will NOT seem to leave me alone, the doctor feels

the condition of the airport, and a few other things as well, the pollution of

Bangkok as well....... has exacerbated it all...

Well, 2 days ago, my Doctor, sent

me for a follow up Chest X Ray, today was the big day to get the results, he

sat there very quiet and for once stuck for words, he is always telling me

dirty jokes and of funny things, he did that at the end, not the beginning like

he normally does......

Well the results indicate the

following.......... I am glad I was sitting, I was left gob smacked......

· I have been diagnosed as having Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary

Disease (COPD) of which I am suffering the first ugly sister AKA Chronic Bronchitis not Acute, where the lung damage is

done, the second ugly sister is Miss Emphysema, the report says in a roundabout

way, not actually saying it, the cause of which could be from my MANY YEARS OF

SMOKING... Who do I start punching first........

· For the interests of better reading, I have NEVER EVER EVER

smoked any type of cigarette, legal or wacky baccy ones, I repeat NEVER

EVER....... BUT the irony of it all is this..... I have been subjected to

smokers from Day 1 of my life, my mother smoked all my life till she died when

I was 22... My god, in those days mothers, smoked in the wards with the babies

beside them........ my mother always ahd a fag in her hand, it used to annoy

the hell out of me.... I hated that she smoked.....

· My first partner smoked.... we were together 3 years, death

occurred as a result of a car accident, so not smoking related.

· I worked in a hospital system, where everyone smoked, all

over the place, staff rooms, offices were so polluted by smoke, one could not

breath. Laws only changed in the recent past.

· Then I married a heavy smoker in 1977 until we separated 5

years ago, she smoked like a chimney... I at least demanded it be done outside,

for I could no longer cope with it being inside..... I often used to get Acute

Bronchitis....... To this day, I cannot go anywhere near a smoke filled room,

or I feel like I am dying from lack of oxygen.

· Also in Bangkok, we were subjected to lots and lots of

cigarette smoke, everywhere in the street, in cars, they do not have Laws like

we do here against smoking, and everyone smokes over there......

· So all up I guess of y 55 years of life, I’ve been subjected

to smokers for 50 years of those years, not hard to now see why this result has

occurred. So I now tend to believe the hype about the dangers of

cigarettes, to non smokers via a passive route............. I’m a

firsthand victim here. I would rather win Powerball or Ozlotto...... Trust

me........

· So he has put me onto long term antibiotics, this has not

made me happy, but I have no choice, he has also added a Spin Haler name

escapes me, that I will take in conjunction with the Symbicort, as I still have

Acute Asthma, I am just wondering, WHAT THE HECK..... Just call me Lucky from

now on rather than Rob or Bobby.

· How do I get better.... This is going to be very hard, Give

up smoking, my lungs will improve greatly... ...... The jury is obviously remaining

OUT in that one..

· He wants me to get to my weight range as the extra stress

on the lungs will hopefully diminish.

· He wants me to start increasing my pulmonary activity, by

walking faster each day, till I am nearly Power Walking in between slower

walks..

· I am now at a much greater risk of developing Lung Cancer

as well as the Ugly Other Sister mentioned above..... so again not happy about

this one....

· I could not make up stories like this, I am trying to look

at it from a positive perspective, but GOD it is hard............ I guess I have

No Excuse now not to get to a comfortable weight, the stress on my lungs of

late has been hard to live with. My doctor is happy I am doing tennis, I start

the Cardio Tennis next week, so we will see how I go with this....

· Well my dear friends, I may be down a bit, but I am not

out.... JUST YET.................... We are playing tennis with Tom tomorrow,

we hope it is not too hot...... I am going to win this battle or drop dead

trying lol.........................

Night Night

Big Hugs

Rob