Gems from Carol on depression :)

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Found another gem from our sweetie ex-moderator Carol on depression.

Thanks to, to Viv who made the whole dialog possible

(Carol) My comments within followed by ***

> How do I react when I think that thought?: I feel tired and

> depressed. I feel desirous of sleep to come at me again. I long for

> death.

***Is that true? Is it really death that you long for?

> I pull the duvet up and wish for oblivion and the crushing of the

> thoughts and the negativity.

***UB: My thoughts will kill me.

> My mind travels to my childhood - to 's suicide. College -

> spending all day in bed. I seem to have spent my teenage years in

> bed. The weight of living when my father left. Tied in a cot -

> heaviness. Fear in the womb - a ten month old baby not wanting to

> come into the physical. I get pain for holding this belief - 'I

> wake up with despair.'

***Where do you feel the thought, " I wake up in despair " in your

body? What is the physical sensation now when you are awake, when you

think that thought?

***What is the self-talk? What dialog to yourself runs through your

head when you go to sleep and anticipate waking up in despair? What

do you tell yourself when you wake up in the morning? Are you

telling yourself the truth?

>

> Who would I be without the thought?: I would simply wake and step

> out of bed. I would simply start my day. I wouldn't have to

> struggle every morning to find the positive. I would find an inner

> peace immediately I woke.

***What if you woke up and the despairing thoughts were there, but

you didn't have a story about their being true? Who would you be

without the story that *you* were waking up in despair?

>

> T.A.

> 'I do not wake up with despair.' No

> 'My thinking wakes up with despair.' Absolutely.

> 'I wake up with pleasure.' That would be wonderful.

***So how would you live your life differently if you worked with

these turnarounds? What if " I woke up with pleasure " were as true or

truer?

***Try this turnaround: I sleep in despair. When you attach to the

thought that mornings are about despair...are you truly awake?

Beautiful start, Viv. I love the way you are working-playing every

day.

Love, Carol

And more love from ...

Neo