Jan's LOVE (Re: Heidi's Love)

[Guest guest]

> Remember Heidi - you showed me something very beautiful once -

because

> on the other side of using another as a drug is marrying yourself.

Yes. Thank you for reminding me, Jan!

>

> I'm experiementing with that - changing all the " him's " to me's

Yes. What i notice is that i do notice (lots of noticing!) all the

pain that comes with making it all about him (in my #3's), and i

turn my beliefs around, but they still seem to be there. I guess

that's out of my hands. I can still act on some of the turnarounds

and give myself what i need and want even though there is still the

belief i want it from him.

> - then

he's just icing on the cake instead of being the whole party.

Yes! I've noticed that the best kind of love is when it's the icing

on the cake. I'm already feeling good and at peace within myself and

then i am so receptive to love from others and it seems to be all

over the place. Again, makes me see it has nothing to do with anyone

else but with what's going on inside of me.

> Not making it yet - this remembering and forgetting stuff - round

and

> round I go....Blessings - Jan

I don't see you going around as much... but that's just from over

here. I'm not inside of you. You seem softer and more gentle these

days, less making it about other people. Hey! Wait a minute! That's

all about me

Love,

Heidi