you should have told me, pt. 3

[Guest guest]

*You are deceitful, a spiritual space-case, vulnerable, in denial, sometimes

unprofessional, dying.

I am deceitful (sometimes), a spiritual space-case (often), vulnerable (feels

that way sometimes), in denial (yes), sometimes unprofessional (sure --

especially when I sit in judgment of you as a therapist), dying (killing myself

with my worries).

My thinking is deceitful. My thinking is a spiritual space-case. My

thinking is vulnerable. My thinking is in denial. My thinking is sometimes

unprofessional. My thinking is dying (yay!).

*I don't want to experience your death or debilitation from this disease. 

I am willing to experience your death or debilitation from this disease; it

could happen. I look forward to meeting with understanding my most painful

thoughts about it, to treating my mind's " dis-ease " when it refuses to see

" illness " and " death " as part of the perfection of " what is. "

*I am afraid to lose you.

I can't lose you. And if I find myself afraid, good. I am willing to feel

those old feelings, which have nothing to do with you. I look forward to

revealing the scam of my thinking, to pulling back the curtain to show what's

happening backstage in this artificial drama.