Guest guest Posted February 4, 2004 Report Share Posted February 4, 2004 You are being silly. You offer the most wonderful support possible. When we all need a bit of a lift, who comes through and gives us a bit of a laugh? It is you. And knowing that you are there for all of us and reading what we write, and thinking about what's written is all the support that is needed. I want also to meantion your comments about Trace. Am afraid as to how this might look but there you go. I can fully understand why she wants to spend time with you. You are a wonderful compassionate person, who goes out of his way to help others as much as he can. She is understandably envious of the time you spend doing all you do for the cause. If I were in her position I would be keen to spend time with you too. You are truly worthy of all the support you get, and a great asset to the group. Checking in again Hi everybody, I just wanted to let you all know that I'm doing much better after my melt down earlier this week. I got home at midnight on Sunday, very tired and depressed. I knew I wouldn't sleep so after Trace had gone to bed I went and got myself a large Drambuie. I wanted to have a good cry and let it all out but I just couldn't. At about 1.30 I wrote to all of you and told you how I felt. That brought on the tears. I spent half an hour crying until there was a big soggy patch on the carpet. I'm still catching up on my emails. I have to say I'm totally shocked that so many of you responded. Thank you all so much. I'm sure I haven't seen them all yet. I have to say a few sorrys though. I was a bit hard on Trace. When she's tired she can be a bit short tempered which probably lead to a few harsh words on Sunday. But in general she is great. She puts up with me and that can't be easy. Her objection to me going away at the weekend is simply because she wants to be with me. I have trouble understanding that. If I was her I'd want to get rid of me as much as possible. But for some reason that I will truly never understand she seems to want me around. And I have to say sorry to many of you too. I've read what many of you have written at your lowest moments. I can clearly remember starting to write to Abby and to Jan and to others. I'd start and then I'd get stuck. What could I possibly say to someone that would make things better. If we were in the same room I'd have cradled you all in my arms and given you a big hug. But I just couldn't express that in words at the moment that it was important. I have let many of you down like this and I am so sorry. Especially as so many of you jumped right in and wrote to me in my hour of need. Please forgive me. I don't deserve you all. Welcome to LBDcaregivers. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 5, 2004 Report Share Posted February 5, 2004 , It is ok to stop saying you are sorry. I can think of nothing you have to be sorry about. We all do melt downs and you are entitled to yours. And all the messages means that you are cared about a lot. You weren't hard on either. Maybe we were. Now take a deep breath....Hold it... and blow it out as Courage would say. Lots of hugs. Donna Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 5, 2004 Report Share Posted February 5, 2004 , Everything is OK. Don't feel guilty, you have done absolutely nothing wrong. Sometimes after long periods of stress your body just forces you to release it and " cleanse " itself by means of crying, anger (often lashed out at the ones we hold dearest because we know they are safe and wont abandon us). I get the feeling you have kind of low self esteem (I may be wrong, I am certainly not a psychologist!) and think yourself to be worthless and undeserving of love and affection....and I dont know how to ever convince you that YOU ARE deserving!! You are truly a good person, full of love and emotion, sensitive.... In case you havent noticed, the ratio of men to women on this board is pretty low. Many of the women who have brothers complain about how their brothers detach themselves from what goes on with their parents. So I have nothing but respect for you being here, doing the best you can, fighting the losing battle (sorry that sounds so negative...but its simply the truth) with the rest of us. I'm glad you are feeling better. Love & Hugs, Coyote In LBDcaregivers , " Hodgson " <james@v...> wrote: > Hi everybody, > > I just wanted to let you all know that I'm doing much better after my melt > down earlier this week. > I got home at midnight on Sunday, very tired and depressed. I knew I > wouldn't sleep so after Trace had gone to bed I went and got myself a large > Drambuie. I wanted to have a good cry and let it all out but I just > couldn't. At about 1.30 I wrote to all of you and told you how I felt. That > brought on the tears. I spent half an hour crying until there was a big > soggy patch on the carpet. > > I'm still catching up on my emails. I have to say I'm totally shocked that > so many of you responded. Thank you all so much. I'm sure I haven't seen > them all yet. > > I have to say a few sorrys though. > I was a bit hard on Trace. When she's tired she can be a bit short tempered > which probably lead to a few harsh words on Sunday. But in general she is > great. She puts up with me and that can't be easy. Her objection to me going > away at the weekend is simply because she wants to be with me. I have > trouble understanding that. If I was her I'd want to get rid of me as much > as possible. But for some reason that I will truly never understand she > seems to want me around. > > And I have to say sorry to many of you too. I've read what many of you have > written at your lowest moments. I can clearly remember starting to write to > Abby and to Jan and to others. I'd start and then I'd get stuck. What could > I possibly say to someone that would make things better. If we were in the > same room I'd have cradled you all in my arms and given you a big hug. But I > just couldn't express that in words at the moment that it was important. > I have let many of you down like this and I am so sorry. Especially as so > many of you jumped right in and wrote to me in my hour of need. Please > forgive me. I don't deserve you all. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 5, 2004 Report Share Posted February 5, 2004 Also Jim, don't forget that a few of us girls still need to see your " bum " when you're doing your yoga! lol Courage Re: Checking in again > > >You are being silly. You offer the most wonderful support possible. When we all need a bit of a lift, who comes through and gives us a bit of a laugh? It is you. And knowing that you are there for all of us and reading what we write, and thinking about what's written is all the support that is needed. > >I want also to meantion your comments about Trace. Am afraid as to how this might look but there you go. I can fully understand why she wants to spend time with you. You are a wonderful compassionate person, who goes out of his way to help others as much as he can. She is understandably envious of the time you spend doing all you do for the cause. If I were in her position I would be keen to spend time with you too. > >You are truly worthy of all the support you get, and a great asset to the group. > > > > > Checking in again > > > Hi everybody, > > I just wanted to let you all know that I'm doing much better after my melt > down earlier this week. > I got home at midnight on Sunday, very tired and depressed. I knew I > wouldn't sleep so after Trace had gone to bed I went and got myself a large > Drambuie. I wanted to have a good cry and let it all out but I just > couldn't. At about 1.30 I wrote to all of you and told you how I felt. That > brought on the tears. I spent half an hour crying until there was a big > soggy patch on the carpet. > > I'm still catching up on my emails. I have to say I'm totally shocked that > so many of you responded. Thank you all so much. I'm sure I haven't seen > them all yet. > > I have to say a few sorrys though. > I was a bit hard on Trace. When she's tired she can be a bit short tempered > which probably lead to a few harsh words on Sunday. But in general she is > great. She puts up with me and that can't be easy. Her objection to me going > away at the weekend is simply because she wants to be with me. I have > trouble understanding that. If I was her I'd want to get rid of me as much > as possible. But for some reason that I will truly never understand she > seems to want me around. > > And I have to say sorry to many of you too. I've read what many of you have > written at your lowest moments. I can clearly remember starting to write to > Abby and to Jan and to others. I'd start and then I'd get stuck. What could > I possibly say to someone that would make things better. If we were in the > same room I'd have cradled you all in my arms and given you a big hug. But I > just couldn't express that in words at the moment that it was important. > I have let many of you down like this and I am so sorry. Especially as so > many of you jumped right in and wrote to me in my hour of need. Please > forgive me. I don't deserve you all. > > > > > > Welcome to LBDcaregivers. > > > > > >--------------------------------------------------------------------------- --- > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 5, 2004 Report Share Posted February 5, 2004 , You really dont have to say you are sorry. You were just frustrated and angry about the disease. I think most of us have been there. And thankfully you and many others have let us pour out our anger and sorrow. We need each other and are lucky to have each other. M > >Reply-To: LBDcaregivers >To: " LBDcaregivers " <LBDcaregivers > >Subject: Checking in again >Date: Wed, 4 Feb 2004 20:55:45 -0000 >MIME-Version: 1.0 >X-Sender: james@... >Received: from n12.grp.scd.yahoo.com ([66.218.66.67]) by >mc10-f41.hotmail.com with Microsoft SMTPSVC(5.0.2195.6824); Wed, 4 Feb 2004 >19:19:24 -0800 >Received: from [66.218.67.197] by n12.grp.scd.yahoo.com with NNFMP; 05 Feb >2004 03:18:22 -0000 >Received: (qmail 4113 invoked from network); 4 Feb 2004 20:54:19 -0000 >Received: from unknown (66.218.66.172) by m4.grp.scd.yahoo.com with QMQP; >4 Feb 2004 20:54:19 -0000 >Received: from unknown (HELO uranium.btinternet.com) (194.73.73.89) by >mta4.grp.scd.yahoo.com with SMTP; 4 Feb 2004 20:54:18 -0000 >Received: from [81.133.105.233] (helo=noisylaptop)by uranium.btinternet.com >with smtp (Exim 3.22 #25)id 1AoU2J-0004Cu-00for >LBDcaregivers ; Wed, 04 Feb 2004 20:54:15 +0000 >X-Message-Info: JGTYoYF78jGoS2bztyfRpw9LgM8saETm >X-eGroups-Return: >sentto-2141318-24678-1075951102-cat86443=hotmail.com@... >X-Apparently-To: LBDcaregivers >Message-ID: >X-MSMail-Priority: Normal >X-Mailer: Microsoft Outlook IMO, Build 9.0.2416 (9.0.2910.0) >X-MimeOLE: Produced By Microsoft MimeOLE V6.00.2800.1165 >X-eGroups-Remote-IP: 194.73.73.89 >X-Yahoo-Profile: a_j_hodgson >X-eGroups-Rocket-Track: 1: 100 ; IPCR=n-w0,n100,g0 ; SERVER=66.218.86.252 >Mailing-List: list LBDcaregivers ; contact >LBDcaregivers-owner >Delivered-To: mailing list LBDcaregivers >Precedence: bulk >List-Unsubscribe: <mailto:LBDcaregivers-unsubscribe > >Return-Path: >sentto-2141318-24678-1075951102-cat86443=hotmail.com@... >X-OriginalArrivalTime: 05 Feb 2004 03:19:24.0991 (UTC) >FILETIME=[DB17FCF0:01C3EB96] > >Hi everybody, > >I just wanted to let you all know that I'm doing much better after my melt >down earlier this week. >I got home at midnight on Sunday, very tired and depressed. I knew I >wouldn't sleep so after Trace had gone to bed I went and got myself a large >Drambuie. I wanted to have a good cry and let it all out but I just >couldn't. At about 1.30 I wrote to all of you and told you how I felt. That >brought on the tears. I spent half an hour crying until there was a big >soggy patch on the carpet. > >I'm still catching up on my emails. I have to say I'm totally shocked that >so many of you responded. Thank you all so much. I'm sure I haven't seen >them all yet. > >I have to say a few sorrys though. >I was a bit hard on Trace. When she's tired she can be a bit short tempered >which probably lead to a few harsh words on Sunday. But in general she is >great. She puts up with me and that can't be easy. Her objection to me >going >away at the weekend is simply because she wants to be with me. I have >trouble understanding that. If I was her I'd want to get rid of me as much >as possible. But for some reason that I will truly never understand she >seems to want me around. > >And I have to say sorry to many of you too. I've read what many of you have >written at your lowest moments. I can clearly remember starting to write to >Abby and to Jan and to others. I'd start and then I'd get stuck. What could >I possibly say to someone that would make things better. If we were in the >same room I'd have cradled you all in my arms and given you a big hug. But >I >just couldn't express that in words at the moment that it was important. >I have let many of you down like this and I am so sorry. Especially as so >many of you jumped right in and wrote to me in my hour of need. Please >forgive me. I don't deserve you all. > > > _________________________________________________________________ Optimize your Internet experience to the max with the new MSN Premium Internet Software. http://click.atdmt.com/AVE/go/onm00200359ave/direct/01/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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