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Hello. I could use advice or just plain and simple understanding from

folks whove been where I'm at.

I haven't spoken with my nada for six months. It's a long story but

basically boils down to the fact that her cruelty was becoming a

danger to my health (I have cronic depression, for which -- unlike my

nada -- I get treatment). Anyhow, she seems to have gotten the

message, since we moved and didn't give her our address or phone

number (she only has an e-mail address for us). I got through

Christmas on bated breath, fearful that she would try to pull

something. Her MO is generally to try to get at me through my

brother, who is still enmeshed with her. Wednesday went by and I

thought I'd dodged the bullet -- she turned her guns against my

brother instead (not that that is a good thing, but I admit I was

relieved that for once it wasn't me).

Then my husband got a phone call today (Sunday) from my brother

asking if he should bring us her Christmas presents!!! Including a

big ol check(she knows we are living hand to mouth)! I can't believe

it. I'm wrenched. What an ingenious double bind -- accept the gifts

and be back under her shadow; reject them and be the " cruel " one who

breaks her heart on Christmas. It's hard to explain, maybe, but I was

so wrenched at the situation, and especially the fact that she got

her poisen to me through my brother and my husband (my only other

relatives, who both promised _not_ to be middle men for her!). I was

so depressed I couldn't move or speak for hours. Sounds extreme, I

guess . . . dunno . . .does anyone know how I feel? She wants to push

this thing as far as she can, until I either loose it completely

or " cause " her to do so instead.

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