Home Bound

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I've been struggling this morning trying to accept the facts of my DD's

situation and realizing that we're basically home bound.

Everytime we have left the house the past week the trip was absolute h e l l.

My 4 year old DD won't wear socks because she has intrusive thoughts that the

sock will take her toes off and then some days she won't even wear shoes. How

can I take her anywhere with out shoes? She is too big to carry and she will

scream bloody murder if I try to put her in a stroller. We tried flip flops but

she refuses to walk in them.

She had been doing horse lessons once a week but the entire lesson she just

stares at her fingers and doesn't pay attention. I am throwing money away. It

took 2 hours to get her dressed just to leave for the horse lesson. I had to beg

her to get dressed.

I am just done! I just have to accept the fact that we can't leave right now

while we're still in " crisis " mode.

I am cancelling all our obligations except her weekly therapy. It's just so

frustrating because It feels like no one knows what I am going through with her.

When I tell my friends she has OCD it's like they don't believe me or they don't

think it's a big deal. They have this image in their head like she's just lining

up crayons all day or something or I am not disciplining her enough.

So now, we are home. She is happy playing with her toys and I guess this is

where we are staying for awhile.