work on family pt. 3

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i want D to see that his problems arent the worlds fault. i want him to see

that his hateful attitudes toward other people dont do a damn bit of good for

him or anybody else. i want him to grow up and learn to take responsibility

for himself. i want him to get off his ass and do what he loves to do (he is

an increadible musician). i want him to want to do what i want him to do!

SO D CANT SEE WHO'S FAULT HIS PROBLEMS ARE. IS THIS TRUE? it appears true.

WHATS YOUR PROOF? he verbally blames other people for his circumstances.

HAVE YOU EVER DONE THAT? yeah. DO YOU KNOW WHO'S FAULT YOUR PROBLEMS ARE? my

thinkings. SOOO...

D CANT SEE WHO'S FAULT HIS PROBLEMS ARE, CAN YOU ABSOLUTELY KNOW THIS IS

TRUE? no, i really cant know that.

HOW DO YOU REACT WHEN YOU BELIEVE THIS PAINFUL LIE? self-righteous, like IM

the guy who's got it all figured out. i do that. i pretend like ive got all

my shit together and throw out vibes at him like " hey, check ME out! if only

you were just like ME, you could be just like ME!!! " ...jeeezus. false.

fake. arrogant. i dont just LET him be him. and i also hold back my own true

feelings out of fear of his reaction, which is painful as well.

PEACE OR STRESS? duh.

PEACFUL REASON TO HOLD ONTO THIS? nope.

SEE A REASON TO LET IT GO? yup.

WHO WOULD YOU BE, HOW WOULD YOU LIVE WITHOUT THIS BELIEF? lighter. i could

retract my fingers from his brain (it's not doing too much good anyway). i

could let him express himself freely, and i could express myself more freely as

well. free to let him have all his thoughts, feelings, opinions. it's a

tough and thankless job trying to control someones mind, and he hasnt even paid

me

yet! i quit!

TA> D knows perfectly well who's " fault " his problems are. could be just as

true.

TA> my thinking D needs to see his problems any different than he does is MY

problem. true.

TA> i need to see that my thinking isnt D's fault. whoa. that's deep.

TA> i need to see that D's thinking isnt his fault. this is true. it takes

some of the anger out of it.

TA> D's thinking isnt anyones fault, its his path. i wish this felt more

obvious to me, but i do feel truth in it.

TA> my thinking inst my FAULT either, it is my path. true as well.

TA> i need to trust that these paths are exactly the way they are supposed

to be with no mistakes. so increadibly true.

more to come...