- Re: Doing the Work on a child's death..(m)

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Wow - thanks for that! I never thought to pray for guidance and

wisdom from . I have a few of nne's books, and I think she

speaks really simple truth.

As far as looking for wisdom from within - I am surprised when I do

my journaling how wise the voice is that speaks to me. Even when I

look back to a year ago, my inner voice advised me to be gentle with

myself, and to except everything that was happening as being more

than " about me " . My daughter's path in life is mine only so far as I

observe it and attach myself to it - the rest is her business, and if

I pay attention, I can learn great lessons.

I would love to see your format. I think we can all learn a great

deal from each other if we are open to it.

Shayleen

> > I am a lurker who has been around for about a year. I have

gotten a

> > lot of wisdom from your posts and from 's work. As well, I

> > posted about 10 months ago regarding my daughter's illness, and

your

> > responses were ones that really struck a chord with me.

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> > My 33 month old daughter, Cameryn, was diagnosed with a brain

tumour

> > one year ago tomorrow, June 23, 2002. What has followed has been

a

> > roller coaster of treatment and emotion. Following seven months

> > straight of chemotherapy and stem cell transplant, we returned

home

> > to enjoy our days with Cameryn. She was declared cancer free in

> > March of this year. On June 2nd, we found on that the tumour had

> > returned and has spread to her spinal fluid as well. She has

been

> > given three to five months to live.

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> > I find that doing the work at this point is helpful, but I'm

still

> > left with sadness and anticipatory grief. I return again and

again

> > to the chapter that deals with handling " The worst that can

happen " .

> > I'm having difficulty completely being at peace with what is

> > happening, although there is a certain relief in surrender.

Anyone

> > have any thoughts or references that might be helpful to me in

> > working through this?

> >

> > Shayleen, mom to (4) and Cameryn (

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