Blockbuster

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Some of my thoughts:

I shouldn't feel sick after being in there.

I should be able to stay in there longer.

I shouldn't get impatient with Gio when he takes a long time to pick stuff

out.

They shouldn't have their air vents on so powerfully. (This pissed me off so

bad tonight!)

The store shouldn't smell.

I need to stay until whoever I came with is ready.

The sick feeling will pass.

There is a time limit on my well-being and comfort.

I need to shop there.

This time it will be different.

Gio should hurry up. (If I stay, he'll decide to leave sooner.)

Gio shouldn't buy so many PV-Dvds.

He shouldn't get all excited when the 9.99 sale is on.

I can't leave.

I have to be there to talk Gio out of spending too much money on DVDs.

Blah blah blah! I'm not welcoming my thoughts about this very much right now.

I'll give some attention to this one:

**I need to shop at Blockbuster.

1. No.

2. No.

3. When I think I need to shop there it's because we have a Rewards thing

going on and if we get a certain amount of videos we get free ones. So I'm a

victim to advertising. I become a good little consumer and do what the card

says. It's also in a really close shopping plaza, so I shop there for

convenience. I tell myself that things that are nearby are better than things

that are far away. I shop there out of familiarity -- that's where I shopped

in FL--I've worked at one -- and I have a card there. I make it like it's the

only video store around. I give money to a place I don't even really like to

go. I force myself to go in there when I'd rather stay out in the car

sometimes.

4. Without the thought that I need to shop there, I might explore other video

stores. I might let Gio shop there for us if he likes to go there. I might

get things from Blockbuster online. I might not be such a glutton for

advertising gimmicks that get consumers to shop at their stores. I might stop

watching so many movies and do more Work...or whatever!

TA> I do not need to shop at Blockbuster. Right.

TA> Blockbuster does not need me to shop there. Sure, they have tons of other

customers.

TA> I need to shop at me. (Well, I go to Blockbuster for entertainment. What

I get from this TA is that I can entertain myself without movies. I have

entertainment in myself. Yes, that is true.)

**I need to stay until the person I came with is ready to leave, too.

1. Yes, I've thought this many times.

2. No.

3. I stay and make myself miserable. I'm not enjoyable company. I rush others

to finish up. I send out the impatient vibe. I complain about things. I tell

them I'm done with hopes that it will speed up their process and that they'll

feel guilty for taking so long. I hope they'll start feeling sorry for me and

just leave when I want them to. I read the back of movies I'm not really

interested in getting. I'll stare at candy with ingredients I don't even eat.

I wander around looking bored...just passing the time until the other person

is ready. I leave feeling depressed and annoyed...living in the

past...feeling myself stuck in Blockbuster. I take Blockbuster with me when I

leave. I bring it into my home, onto my futon, into my bed. ICK!! Reasons I

need to be there: to let them know if I've seen it already, to tell them

whether a movie is good/bad, to prevent them from spending too much money, to

make them hurry up.

4. Without the thought that I have to stay until the person I came with is

ready, I pick out my own videos and then go outside or to the car until the

other person is done. Easy enough. I pay attention to the thought that I'm

done...and leave when that one comes to visit. I'm kinder to myself and to my

friend...and anyone else I might engage with at the store. I might still have

a smile left in me for the people behind the counter as I walk out. I'm

totally in charge of myself...and other people do not affect my decisions.

Big thing... I listen to me.

TA> I do not have to stay until my friend is ready.

TA> My friend does not have to stay until I'm ready.

TA> My friend does not have to leave when I'm ready.

TA> I need to leave when I'm ready. Yes, that's being in my business and

taking care of myself. And when I do that, I'm automatically taking care of

the other person because I'm giving them the space to be themselves and stay

for however long they're going to stay. Nice. : )