~Holly~

[Guest guest]

<<<I pray a lot and I know a lot of people have a lot

worse problems than I do, but I feel totally isolated

and unable to do all the things the self-help books

keep telling us to do.

Fibro and lack of money has keep me from getting

involved in new things that I'd like to get involved

in.>>>>>

Holly,

I am so sorry you are feeling this way, often I feel the same way.

Please know that everything you are speaking about is helping me out

so very much.

Today and yesterday and this WHOLE wek sucked big time for me, but

for my children I gotta put on that happy face.

If I were alone what would I feel like? A big fear of mine is being

alone, I mean I like to be alone for a little while but not ALL the

time. These days I am lucky to get to go potty without someone

screaming or in there with me....

A lot of the emotions you have, I also have and I just thank you so

much for bringing them FWD. Please know, I live in chronic pain (car

accident and a disease) and do understand that fatigue, the pain, and

how nobody wants to hear about it unless they also suffer.

Perhaps your therapist is not the right one for you?

I actually wanted help so bad this summer I called DR SUSAN FORWARD,

in CA, the one who wrote " TOXIC PARENTS/TOXIC INLAWS " as I knew she

could help me. Oh I called and figured she would never have room for

any extra customers. However she did! Then I figured I would need 2

weeks in CA going ever other day LOL......Ok, so I never got there

but I sure wish I had & I know I can always get out there if I need

to. The only therapist I have seen here in my town is the one my

NUTSO in-laws chose to see. He was ok, but a little to under

experienced, when I mentioned BPD he was like HUH?

You are not alone, I am walking beside you =) We will all get through

this (I HOPE!)

~Kim