~LISA~

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& others,

I also get very nervous when walking into a large room full of people. Kind

of strange because I have to do so very often (one would think i would be

used to it?).

When I do so, I really concentrate on what it is I have to do. In my mind I

am laughing at half of the two faced people I see, and then sometimes I feel

sorry for them. In a small town you have people all over the place who

" THINK " they know you just because they may have talked to a friend or a

neighbor, even a relative.

I honestly believe that most people feel kind of odd when they have to be in

a large crowd of people, but if they have a gang of friends to hang with they

seem to feel superior. Last year I got rid of a lot of negative friendships,

people who laughed at me + my children, people ADULTS, who could not stop

discussing my life. To my face they were just so nice, they of course were my

very " GOOD " friends. A lot I have learned from that experience.

For the past 3 years I have been wanting to MOVE to a larger area, a place

where I do not know many people. When I was in CA I loved it, when we lived

in NY I loved it, but now that I live in my old hometown I HATE it......Why?

The people around me, I just do not want to be around them. Oh I have a few

very special friends, and I would miss them dearly! Though I would not miss

this town full of fake people~

Oh boy my baby has locked himself into my BEDROOM, I gotta run! Hang in there

ladies and know you are not alone =)

Kim