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thanks darla :-)...i needed to hear that!....im just so sorry that i hurt this

guy but i was living in such pain this past year and even tho he was telling he

loves me and wants to be with me it just wasnt feeling right to me...yes it is

hard, i was up all night and even called in sick from work today...right now i

feel like its the end of the world ya know

thanks so much

christina

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hi mark....im not too far from you cause im in PA....yes i have been wanted to

make this decision for some time now and i am very fearfull of change....ive

stayed in abusive relationships for long periods of time just because i was

afraid to change....i stayed in a terrible job for a long time just because i

was afraid to change.....now i ended a relationship that i was very unhappy in

and the hardest part will be my sticking to it and not try to go back....im

already thinking that i just want everything to go back to the way it was and

not change but i dont want to be unhappy anymore!...what do they say " theres

other fish in the sea " well im hoping that is true!

thanks

christina

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hi mark...i know you are right...i wanted to be free so i could go out and have

fun and find someone who wants to be with me and who wants to make me

happy....im just stuck thinking about what i wanted this other guy to be and

what i tried to make him be but its been 14 months so i pretty much assume that

nothing was gonna change....someone once told me that if you dont like the way

someone acts in the beginning of the relationship that it will only get

worse....i do want to stop dwelling on this and move on!

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hi mark...yes i wish i had made this decision a long time ago and i do fear my

own feelings....i fear that i will come home at night and feel so lonely and

want to call him and talk to him and make everything ok but the prob is that

even if i did talk to him i would still feel bad....i need to just let the

feelings feel bad and just get over it!

christina

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hi mark and YES your words do help alot thankyou :-)....well all this

discomfort i have felt since last night im gonna feel really really good when

this passes then :-) lol....tonight im gonna just force myself to go out and be

around other ppl altho im not yet gonna look for a new man to date just yet ..at

least not untill i feel better and im more comfortable with my time alone

otherwise im gonna be too " needy " and scare any sane man FAR away from

me!...thanks much mark!

christina

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It does feel like the end of the world for a little

bit, but just wait and see what positive people and

things come knocking at your door real soon! One

thing I learned is negativity breeds negativity and

something thing for being positive! It will all work

out I am sure!

Barbara

--- frozen fire wrote:

> thanks darla :-)...i needed to hear that!....im just

> so sorry that i hurt this guy but i was living in

> such pain this past year and even tho he was telling

> he loves me and wants to be with me it just wasnt

> feeling right to me...yes it is hard, i was up all

> night and even called in sick from work

> today...right now i feel like its the end of the

> world ya know

>

> thanks so much

> christina

>

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> today!

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thanks barbra :-)....for now i just have to be strong no matter how hard it is

and remind myself that i made the decision to end this relationship and now i

have to stick to it and not call him up saying im sorry like i always did in the

past...if i go back then nothing will ever change and i know that for sure

thanks

christina

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thankyou so much express nichole :-)....i really need to keep hearing positive

feedback just to survive thru this :-)....right now im in that stage where

everything reminds me of him and all i can think about it what i lost and that i

wont be hearing his voice on the phone anymore....i wish so much that all these

bad feelings inside me would just go away

thanks so much :-)

christina

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[Guest guest]

You're right...it won't change! Stick to your guns,

you can do this!

Barbara

--- frozen fire wrote:

> thanks barbra :-)....for now i just have to be

> strong no matter how hard it is and remind myself

> that i made the decision to end this relationship

> and now i have to stick to it and not call him up

> saying im sorry like i always did in the past...if i

> go back then nothing will ever change and i know

> that for sure

>

> thanks

> christina

>

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> thing today!

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