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Hi there,

I just wanted to check in> I'm a little afraid to say how my week

has been going because I'm a little scared of the *pokes* that I will

receive after revealing the utter shame I feel about this week.

eermm! I've had a friend here all week and it's been so hard to

stick to the plan. I'm ashamed to say that I've had some of the

feelings that I have had. This friend that I have here has been my

best friend since I can remember. So, I know if she knew the

feelings I am having, she wouldn't want me to feel this way.

She and I have always had a weight problem. Always trying new things

to better ourselves. I found Body For Life this past June, and she

found, well, something else. I'm not sure if it's wanting what she

has or what. While doing body for life, it's a slow turn out,

speaking from what I am going thru. It's always been slow progress.

She on the other hand, has lost about 70 pounds and looks great!

Except for, she had NO muscle tone. Little on the anerexic side.

After viewing what she eats all week I can understand how she lost

all this weight. Yet, I still feel guilty eating around her.

Anything. I know this sounds stupid, but I can't help the way I

feel. We went shopping at the outlet malls yesterday, and I swore to

myself, until I could get into a size 10, I would not buy any new

clothes. Well, here she is buying size 2's, and 4's. Most stores I

would sit in the front of the store and just wait for her, because 1,

I was tired of the way the sale's people were treating me and 2,

because none of that stuff would fit on my pinky finger. Anyhoo,

yesterday was a bad day and I'm hoping today will make up for it.

Wow, that was a lot of complaining, but I do feel better for getting

it out. Thank you guys for your support and maybe the next time I

post it will be on a happier note.

LB

*feeling blue in FL*