Re: Digest Number 1689

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>First to answer your second question: I'm not sure WHO I'm doing this for

>any more. I keep trying to convince myself that I'm doing this for ME, that

>I'm doing this to better MYSELF, but I'm not so sure any more. I'm very

>afraid that I'm doing this for the wrong reasons, and that really scares me.

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>I started my fitness journey because I was tired of being rejected by

>people, tired of having no-one to share my life with, tired of the way I

>looked to other people, but mostly because I wanted to improve myself. But,

>recently, I've come to the realization that I'm doing this for all the wrong

>reasons - I wanted to improve myself with the hopes that someone,

>eventually, would look at me and think " Hey, he's pretty good looking, maybe

>I can get to know him. " Yes, gay life is shallow as all hell.

We've already said it, but it bears repeating: the one who will love

you for yourself won't care what you look like. Thus, a better

reason to improve your appearance is so that _you'll_ feel good

enough about yourself to accept that special love when it's offered.

My qualifications for the above: when I was 37, about 6 months

before I met my one and only, I went on a crash course on

self-improvement. To fix the superficial stuff, I got down to the

size and weight I was in high school, I got braces to correct my

crooked teeth, and I started wearing a toupee. To fix the other

stuff, I started giving 10% of my salary (before taxes!) to my church.

(No, the First Baptist Church of Columbia, MO did NOT pay me to say

that; I'm just extremely superstitious when it comes to tithing. If

there's something you want from God, I'd strongly recommend giving

10% of your income to your church / charity of choice.)

At any rate, _whatever_ your motivation, you decided at some point to

become more healthy, and you found that the BFL program works.

That's enough. Stick with it!

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Hugh Emerson

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