Depressed - Viral Load came in today

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10 million two hundred thousand...

When the doc called, it hit me like a ton of bricks. She asked if I was still

there, and I said yes, I'm in shock, I wasn't expecting it to be so high. She

said she's seen worse. She wanted to know about my phlebotomies. I reminded

her of my broken elbow and only arm with good veins. I have phlebs every three

weeks and I am now three phlebs behind. I start physical therapy Monday,

hopefully we can get the elbow straight so I can get the phlebs to get the iron

levels down, and start treatment.

I know this is a progressive disease and it only gets worse. I have done

nothing but cry all day. It's like being diagnosed all over again. And knowing

I can't start tx because of Hemochromatosis is another slap in the face.

It is pouring down rain in Central Texas and it is so appropriate for my mood.

After 25 years of living with this, why should I be so surprised? I've accepted

the fact that I have hep, but having my viral load jump from five hundred

thousand to 10 million two hundred thousand in five years is a very rude

awakening of how this disease can lie dormant and then mutate and attack.

Pretty scary.