kassi

[Guest guest]

kassi and others on the spectrum? why do we do so many impulsive and

stupid things over and over. Like why cant we seem to react or

respond in ways that are of so called logical sense or rational sense

of things when we escalate? I to just wonder wy as an adult for self

cant seem to think in adult fashions when escalted and still react in

ways had always done as a child and never seemed to outgrow that

rapid cycling of irational responses and reactions to things. I to

hate this part of autism in me. many thing of me as mentally ill or

not a emotionally stable person when I to react so rapidly and what

appears as without warrning. It is like fo rme things build and build

and because cant sift of sort them they just keep stacking higher and

higher within me until it all comes crashind down like the need to

get away and drive and drive and didnot have an internal thinking

saying I wll be to leave of him I to just got in the van in hopes to

get a local hotel and found self 2 hours south and then got of stuck

and just drived until couldnot go any further and ended where it did.

Why does our brains tend to get stuck into this sorts of things and

not able to switch out until we sense finished? trying to understand

of self more, I to guess I to just wonder why as adult cant seem to

do thing sthat I to should have gained or learned as adult to not

react or respond in this way but still do.

Sondra