Intro

[Guest guest]

Hi and welcome! You will have some challenges to face in

maintaining a regular schedule with two little ones, but it sounds

like you are dedicated and determined to make this work. I can tell

you that planning is the key element to making BFL a success. Good

luck to you and keep us posted on your progress!

Jen B.

C6W1D3

>

> Hello

> My name is and I have just begun the BFL challenge (started on

Monday 7

> Jan) and I am really excited to succeed. I am a stay at home mum to

a 3 yr

> old daughter and a 9 month old son. I am also still breastfeeding.

I live in

> Lethbridge Alberta and I have a very supportive husband which

really helps

> me a lot. My biggest struggle right now is finding heavy enough

weights to

> use at home. I can't really get to a gym at this point as the only

gym I

> can afford ( at the local university, my husband works at the

university so

> I get a good deal) doesn't have childcare, and the time I have to

go is too

> early to get my mum to help out and not enough time to get my

husband to

> help out. SO I have to stay at home. Which is ok. I am also

studying to

> become a holistic nutritionist. I already know a fair amount about

> nutrition, but I am always learning more. I don't use artificial

sweeteners

> because from my knowledge and experience the dangers in aspartame,

etc far

> outweigh the benefits of substituting for sugar. There are other

natural

> substitutes for sugar such as oligofructose that don't have the

dangerous

> side effects of artificial and even some natural substitutes for

sugar.

> However, when it comes to sugar, I also suffer from a physiological

> addiction and I am dealing with that as well, and eventually will

need to

> pretty much eliminate it from my life altogether. Anyway, I love to

exercise

> and the challenge is pushing myself even harder. I also do yoga

and I am a

> vegetarian. I am really impressed with the successes I have seen

on this

> program and the fact that goals are so important.

>

> I look forward to learning more from the people on this list and

getting to

> know you.

>

> Cheers

>

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[Guest guest]

Hi ,

I you are only 1 week behind me. :0) I been here since Dec 14, I was

giving a trial run before actually entering in the challenge. I did

it just for fun and see what happens.

Anyways, welcome to the group. :-)You will find lots of support here.

How long do you have to finish school. I always been interested in

holistic medicine. I am a nurse right now and I've been thinking

about learning more about it.

Martie

>

> Hello

> My name is and I have just begun the BFL challenge (started on

Monday 7

> Jan) and I am really excited to succeed. I am a stay at home mum to

a 3 yr

> old daughter and a 9 month old son. I am also still breastfeeding.

I live in

> Lethbridge Alberta and I have a very supportive husband which

really helps

> me a lot. My biggest struggle right now is finding heavy enough

weights to

> use at home. I can't really get to a gym at this point as the only

gym I

> can afford ( at the local university, my husband works at the

university so

> I get a good deal) doesn't have childcare, and the time I have to

go is too

> early to get my mum to help out and not enough time to get my

husband to

> help out. SO I have to stay at home. Which is ok. I am also

studying to

> become a holistic nutritionist. I already know a fair amount about

> nutrition, but I am always learning more. I don't use artificial

sweeteners

> because from my knowledge and experience the dangers in aspartame,

etc far

> outweigh the benefits of substituting for sugar. There are other

natural

> substitutes for sugar such as oligofructose that don't have the

dangerous

> side effects of artificial and even some natural substitutes for

sugar.

> However, when it comes to sugar, I also suffer from a physiological

> addiction and I am dealing with that as well, and eventually will

need to

> pretty much eliminate it from my life altogether. Anyway, I love to

exercise

> and the challenge is pushing myself even harder. I also do yoga

and I am a

> vegetarian. I am really impressed with the successes I have seen

on this

> program and the fact that goals are so important.

>

> I look forward to learning more from the people on this list and

getting to

> know you.

>

> Cheers

>

> ---

> Outgoing mail is certified Virus Free.

> Checked by AVG anti-virus system (http://www.grisoft.com).

> Version: 6.0.312 / Virus Database: 173 - Release Date: 12/31/01

[Guest guest]

Hi Krista,

Sorry about your yucky visit with the FOO.. Mine can drag me down

too. I was the good one too, most of the time. Nada wasn't picky

about which of us she hit or raged at though. My nada did the

whole " oh you are so supportive, I don't know what I would have done

without you..... " to me too. I heard all about what a hard life

she'd had and all the trauma of her childhood. That kept me feeling

sorry for her enough to let her continue to be an a**hole for 25 or

so years. I always thought that it was up to me to be her support

person, after all that is what I'd been taught for my whole life. My

sister was really good at the scapegoat role too. She had a talent

for acting out. I was always in the middle of them, trying to keep

everyone happy or at least from killing each other. It's still hard

for me to get used to the truth about my nada. The truth (as far as

I can tell) is that she is not capable of a healthy relationship with

me. I also understand now that I have sold myself short for so

long. I was walking around as if I were the one who was the abuser,

as if I were the one who demeaned, neglected and abused my own

children. Finally I am starting to see that I am not the one who

should be embarassed and ashamed. I should be proud of myself for

coming away from that childhood and almost passing as a competent

person. I also know that I have and will continue to really work on

being a healthy person. The world can always use more of those,

right? Not that I am going to change the world or anything, but I

know that I won't be sitting around adding to the dysfunction

anymore. (I hope) I live with my boyfriend too and we have 2

kitties. I'm going to be 27 soon, he and I have lived together for

the last 3 years. I was actually dumb enough to move to be closer to

my family and dragged him along with me! Oh well, his family had

their own issues so I guess we just substituted one set for another!

Three good things have come out of us moving here though, being close

to my niece and two nephews. They are the most amazing little

things, I know my life is better because I am getting to watch them

grow up. There have been plenty of times I have wanted to run far

far away from here, but I couldn't stand the thought of being away

from them..

> Hi everyone!

> I'm soooo enjoying the posts. I've been on the list

> for about a week or so. I'm 30 and live with my

> boyfriend (of 5 years) and 3 adorable kitties. I

> moved 8 years ago away from my BPD mom. I now live

> 1000 miles from her and my family. I was/am the

> " good " kid she confided in from a very young age --

> about her sexual abuse, about her pain, the one she

> told when she wanted to kill herself (1st time about

> age 8), and who she came to talk to when she choked my

> sister (the scapegoat) until she was uncouncious when

> my sister was about 21. I was put on a pedestal by

> nada, but she still raged on me, just not physically

> though she did beat my sister regularly. She raged on

> me by reading my journal and finding out I was raped,

> then screaming at me on and off for days about what a

> " whore " I was. She killed my cat when I was 21, and

> then screamed at me for bringing my kitty home to

> bury. Etc, etc, etc. As you know I could go on and

> on about the intense chaos and abuse.

>

> Only in the last few years have I been able to

> distance myself from her though parts of my identity

> are still enmeshed with hers. I have a great

> therapist and she's helped me move on and live a life

> apart from my mom. I only talk to my mom every 1 or 2

> months, but when I do, it puts me in a tail spin of

> shame, anger, fear, etc, etc, etc. I went to visit

> her and my family in May. I've been recovering from

> that since then. My sister (scapegoat) ( my sister is

> 35), my father (quiet and detached from all the

> activity), and my niece (sister's teenage daughter)

> all live with her. I have one other sister who has

> never lived more than 10 miles from my mom. You can

> imagine her rage when I moved 1000 miles away.

>

> I am now grappling with the realization that contact

> with my mom is causing more damage than good. I've

> spent years trying to make her better -- as her

> caretaker, that was my role. I read SWOE 3 years ago,

> and have used the communication parts to help me

> create limits with her. She no longer confides in me

> much b/c when she starts, I cut it off. I still love

> my mother very much. We were so enmeshed for so long,

> it is hard for me to imagine not talking to her, but

> in order to grow and protect myself, I am afraid I may

> have to stop talking to her. I am also currently

> grappling with the feeling that I am NOT responsible

> for her pain, and that I am NOT a bad person even

> though I can't save my mom from her pain. I have

> known that intellectually for some time, but

> emotionally, I still grapple with it.

>

> Thanks for listening, this is the first time I've ever

> spoken with anyone who also had a nada. Though I've

> always known there were others, I've never met one.

> Krista

>

> __________________________________________________

>

[Guest guest]

((((KRISTA))))

HUGS KRISTA~WELCOME.

SARA

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[Guest guest]

Jenni,

Welcome to Affirmations to de-stress! We are so happy to have you

here. You will find that you have much in common with many of the group members

here. I came from a similar background (childhood) myself, and there are also

several group members who are caring for their parents ( & with difficulty).

Also, we have many members here with varied health problems -- I have rheumatoid

arthritis myself. So what I'm saying is that you will probably find a warm,

comfy home here in the group. Again, welcome! Hugs, PJ

wrote:

Hi, I'm Jeni, and new to this group. I suffer from

depression/anixeity and CVS. I'm 55 and live in So. Cal. I grew up 1

of 5 children in a home that was emotionlly void of any kind of

positive reinforcement or affection from my father, he might as well

have been absent, he never was a " DAD " to us. So I've been working

to turn my negative thinking around for a long time now. I know

affermation statements work, I've seen it myself. My problem is that

I loose my focus by all the daily disstractions and wander off

track, and forget my affermations, and find myself reacting to

negativity and get sucked back in. I lived it so long it's hard to

break free.

Yesterday I watched a program on PBS with Dr W, Dryer, talking about

his new book, " Living with Intention " . I got so much out of it! I

forsaw that I may want to rewatch it so I taped it and am glad I

did, as I think it will help keep me on track.

I am currently dealing with problems stemming around my parents. Mom

has Alzheimers and I was helping to take care of her as a caregiver.

My father felt HE couldn't take anymore so he put her in a nursing

home, but after only 3 wks he couldn't stand not having her at home

to control any more, so he took her back out. He & I had a lot of

conflict during all of this, he is my main source of negative

energy, that I had to step back, and remove myself from the

situation. He is a passive/agressive control freak w/extream

religious fanatic beliefs, I can't even talk to him anymore, and it

leaves me worried about how he's taking care of my mom without any

help. I just can't do it any more my CVS has gotten worse and I've

got to take care of MY health now. But since I've stopped dealing

with him my stress level has gone way down.

Well, that's it for now, I just wanted to intoduce myself.

All is Well!

Jeni

" A Bad Day is just a Good day in desguise " C.Reeve 1999

http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/AffirmationstoDe-Stress

A positive thinking, positive affirmations support group, discussing ways to

cope with the stresses of daily life. Come aboard! PJ and Gang

[Guest guest]

I've been looking on goat dairy suplly websites this week and am

trying to compile a list of what I need this spring. (Including your

website). Would you mind giving me a simple list of things that I

will need. I'll be starting with 3 each of sheep & goats and want to

eventually expand up to a maximum of 24 of each. I will be selling

raw milk not subject to grade A guidelines but want to be able to

have the best quality possible. THANKS! I'll re-send this email to

you personally as well.

>

> Hello Group,

>

> I am Hamby from Maysville Missouri

>

> I subscribed under email hds@...

>

> You can also contact me at the cc email above

>

> Our family owns a small herd of Alpine Dairy Goats

>

> We ir-regularly consume raw goat milk. that is because we don't

milk every

> day.

>

> I do believe raw milk to be a good thing, with exceptions

>

> Raw milk is definitely not for every farmer/producer. You must be

very

> clean and sanitary. You must handle the milk and the milk storage

> containers properly. And cool it quickly

>

> I have been in the dairy farm equipment business for 15 years. I

grew up on

> a 50 cow family dairy farm where we consumed our raw cow milk every

day. My

> children drank raw goat milk daily from the time they were weaned

from their

> human mother until they were 2 years old. Our children thrived and

had very

> little sickness during the first two years of life.

>

> I have visited hundreds of commercial dairy farms and hobby farms

producing

> raw milk. I would not drink raw milk from 95% of those farms.

>

> I do believe in pasteurization for milk that is pooled in a large

truck,

> hauled to a factory, transferred through several pieces of

equipment,

> possibly stored for a day or two then bottled and distributed back

to

> stores.

>

> Raw milk would have too many opportunities for contamination along

this

> process to safely sell ALL milk in the USA unpasteurized.

>

> However, (don't yell at me yet) I applaud the folks who are

producing raw

> milk commercially where they bottle it on their farm.

>

> Many of our dairy supply customers produce raw milk for home

consumption or

> sale.

>

> I will post occasionally on your list, but I don't read all the

> conversations. If you want to reply to me, I suggest you contact me

> directly or I may miss your message.

>

> Thank you for the opportunity to join your list,

>

> Hamby

>

>

>

> Hamby Dairy Supply

> 2402 SW WATER STREET

> MAYSVILLE MO 64469-9102

>

> www.hambydairysupply.com

> www.surgemilker.com

> www.familymilkcow.com

> http://www.stores.ebay.com/hambydairysupply

>

[Guest guest]

>>

> I have visited hundreds of commercial dairy farms and hobby farms

producing

> raw milk. I would not drink raw milk from 95% of those farms.

>

,

Would you mind telling us what those 5% of farms are doing right? We

are getting ready to open (with some of your equipment, BTW), and it

would be helpful to us and others to hear from an active observer

what protocols to use. What should we do, IYO, that the other 95%

aren't? Specifics would be very useful.

Welcome to the group!

Kathy Vimont

Pasture Nectar Farm

Mt. Vernon, MO

[Guest guest]

Kathy wrote;

> Would you mind telling us what those 5% of farms are doing right? We

> are getting ready to open (with some of your equipment, BTW), and it

> would be helpful to us and others to hear from an active observer

> what protocols to use. What should we do, IYO, that the other 95%

> aren't? Specifics would be very useful.

1 A clean place to milk with the animals udders / teats clean and sanitary.

Not milking on a dirt floor. Concrete floor preferred. Cows or goats not

dragging through the mud and not allowed in ponds

2 Animals tested for diseases communicable to humans such as TB and

Brucellosis

3 Milk strained and quickly cooled.

#3 done in a clean sanitary room with no flies, cats, rats or other animals

wandering through

4 Milk to be fresh. Not more than 48 hours

5 Milking machine spotlessly clean and sanitized with a Clorox solution

within 15 minutes of milking

6 Milker (human) to be clean and wash hands prior to milking and prior to

straining / filling bottles

This list is not complete - but a good start

Hamby

Hamby Dairy Supply

2402 SW WATER STREET

MAYSVILLE MO 64469-9102

www.hambydairysupply.com

www.surgemilker.com

www.familymilkcow.com

http://www.stores.ebay.com/hambydairysupply

[Guest guest]

This reminded me of two of the things that disgusted me about both

(commercial) dairy farms I worked at. The cows were filthy to one

degree or another and nobody cared. I would try to thoughourly wash

everything off of the udders and teats and was told I was too slow &

just " get the chunks " off of the teats -- don't worry about the rest.

YUCK. I said I woundn't want to drink that! I was told at both

farms " that is what the pasturization is for " . Also, if there was

even minor mastitus (mild is small chunks in the milk) I was forced

to just milk the cow (I kept wanting to dump ANY mastitus). Only when

it was severe enough to possibly taint the batch enough to make the

levels to high to use, was I allowed to dump that milk. Again -

pasturization was the cure. I saw flies get sucked up the pipes and

past the filters. Just nasty. The first farm used milking parlor that

was kept power-hosed clean but for speeds sake I was not always

allowed to spray down the floor while working when the cows would

crap. At the second farm, it was a pipeline system in an old barn.

That makes it impossible to power-hose it clean. Even though he liked

me cleaning the teats A LITTLE more than I was allowed at the other,

the cement floors were NEVER actually clean. There was constantly a

dried-old layer of crap stuck to it. And he drank that milk and fed

it to his kids! Even though raw - his answer was the filter cleans

the milk.

I'm sorry but this was all very gross to me, and there's more but

thats enough for now. But of all of the dairy farms I've seen - these

two were 2 of the CLEANEST I saw. If all milk was collected this way -

I would insist on pasturization too. I'm not a neat freak but I

guess when it comes to something i'm goingto eat or drink -- I want

to KNOW that no piss, shit, dirt, flies or other nasty things have

ever touched it. Is that too much to ask? Well I guess it is which

his why I'm gettingdairy goats this spring! I know raw milk is

healthier also but my main reason is it is (at least mine will be)

MORE SANITARY!!!

God, that makes me want to go clean my house now, just thinking about

it.

>

> Kathy wrote;

>

> 1 A clean place to milk with the animals udders / teats clean and

sanitary.

> Not milking on a dirt floor. Concrete floor preferred. Cows or

goats not

> dragging through the mud and not allowed in ponds

> >

> #3 done in a clean sanitary room with no flies, cats, rats or other

animals

> wandering through

[Guest guest]

try this group for sources

http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/trad-foods-MN/

have you checked www.realmilk.com?

>

> Hello

>

> I found this group and would like to hear all you have to say. I have gone

> pretty much organic over the past year (before I thought I was doing well by

> staying away from certain things but when I really learned what is being

> done to our food supply, I'm in horror!

>

> I have loved milk/cheese all my life but kind of got out of using it. Then I

> found out about growth hormones and vaccines and ... well I haven't had milk

> for about 5 years and cheese for about 1-2 years. Never heard of raw milk

> until recently.

>

> I can't find it in Minnesota but I'm getting some that from a local farm and

> is un-homogenized but is vat pasteurized. Have no idea about that, I am

> going to visit them Saturday. I can get some in Wisconsin if I buy into a

> share of the farm, and I plan to go meet with them sometime in May.

>

> It must be frustrating for people who have dairy farms to have to put up

> with the FDA and it constantly trying to undermine a healthy thing in order

> to placate the dairy industry, but thank you for doing so!

>

> Can't wait to eat some cheese from the farm in Wisconsin where they have raw

> milk, I'm sure it will be a grand experience as I used to love Wisconsin

> cheese but it doesn't taste like that anymore.

>

>

>

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[Guest guest]

Hi Everyone,

I'm new to this list, but not new to OCD. I am mom to 2 fantastic daughters

adopted from China. My youngest was dxed with OCD, SPD and PDD-NOS in 2006 along

with expressive language disorder. In 2009 we discovered she has severe hearing

loss in her right ear so her PDD-NOS label went away and was replaced with

Hearing Impairment in her right ear. Her language has improved greatly with lots

of and lots of intervention. Right now she is performing on grade level . (She

is 8 years old and going into 3rd grade)

Her OCD behaviors are still alive and kicking and tend to go from mild to

moderate depending on the day/situation. Her main behaviors are repeating

questions, vocal tics (throat clearing mainly) and obsession with body parts.

(used to be boobs, now it is thighs and arms...she likes them because they are

" squishy " ). She is also obsessed with weather. We have quite a library of

weather books .

Is there anyone else out there with an adopted kiddo with OCD and/or a kiddo

obsessed with body parts and/or a kid who is hearing impaired and has OCD?

Also, her sensory issues still linger and I find swimming in the summer really

helps her because of the deep pressure all over her body.

So glad to be here and am looking forward to the support this list will

provide!!

Laurie in Texas

DH Jimmy

DD #1 , age 11.5, a. Kunming, Yunnan Province on 8/21/00

DD #2 , age 8.5, a. Fuling, Chonquing Municipality on 8/17/03, OCD and UHL,

right ear

[Guest guest]

Welcome !

>________________________________

>

>To: insideoutweightloss

>Sent: Monday, June 20, 2011 9:18 AM

>Subject: intro

>

>

> 

>Hi, Group.

>My name is and I have been listening to IOWL every night for about a

month. I love 's voice and so many things she says seem to apply to my

life. For the first time, I am feeling that I can lose this 50 pounds of excess

fat and that I can do it the right way.

>A little about me: I am 33, married for 8 years, have a 21 month old boy named

Jack and a dog named Bella. I live in Northern CA, near San Francisco. I am

looking forward to connecting with some of you and supporting each other through

this journey!

>

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Thanks!!

>

> Welcome !

>

>  

>

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: insideoutweightloss

> Sent: Monday, June 20, 2011 6:18 AM

> Subject: intro

>

>

>  

> Hi, Group.

> My name is and I have been listening to IOWL every night for about a

month. I love 's voice and so many things she says seem to apply to my

life. For the first time, I am feeling that I can lose this 50 pounds of excess

fat and that I can do it the right way.

> A little about me: I am 33, married for 8 years, have a 21 month old boy

named Jack and a dog named Bella. I live in Northern CA, near San Francisco. I

am looking forward to connecting with some of you and supporting each other

through this journey!

>

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Thanks, !

>

> Welcome !

>

>

>

> >________________________________

> >

> >To: insideoutweightloss

> >Sent: Monday, June 20, 2011 9:18 AM

> >Subject: intro

> >

> >

> > 

> >Hi, Group.

> >My name is and I have been listening to IOWL every night for about a

month. I love 's voice and so many things she says seem to apply to my

life. For the first time, I am feeling that I can lose this 50 pounds of excess

fat and that I can do it the right way.

> >A little about me: I am 33, married for 8 years, have a 21 month old boy

named Jack and a dog named Bella. I live in Northern CA, near San Francisco. I

am looking forward to connecting with some of you and supporting each other

through this journey!

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

>

>

[Guest guest]

Welcome, I am from NJ. Also 33, been married 10 yrs and have a 4yo and

dog Palmer.

Look forward to hearing back from you.

Sent from my iPhone

> Hi, Group.

> My name is and I have been listening to IOWL every night for about a

month. I love 's voice and so many things she says seem to apply to my

life. For the first time, I am feeling that I can lose this 50 pounds of excess

fat and that I can do it the right way.

> A little about me: I am 33, married for 8 years, have a 21 month old boy named

Jack and a dog named Bella. I live in Northern CA, near San Francisco. I am

looking forward to connecting with some of you and supporting each other through

this journey!

>

>

[Guest guest]

Chloe, your boat imagery expresses our journey so well! So many of us  have

suffered similar struggles with family, friends (or lack therof) and weight. We

are all in our little boats, and thankfully we got caught up in this IOWL

current. Thanks so much!

 

Marcia

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To: " insideoutweightloss " <insideoutweightloss >

Sent: Thursday, January 12, 2012 6:43 AM

Subject: Re: Intro

 

Marie, welcome! And I'd just like to put out there that you write beautifully.

It's hard reaching out, I know. I think most of us are in the same boat.

Actually, it's more like we're all in our own boats, but the current is drifting

us toward one another and IOWL is the mother ship with at the helm!

Chloe

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To: insideoutweightloss

Sent: Wednesday, January 11, 2012 9:20 PM

Subject: Intro

 

Hello All,

My name is Marie Capizzi and I live in a suburb of Pheonix, Arizona. I joined

this group on the day I read about it in 's book - January 3rd. I've been

following all the posts and I want to come out of the shadows and introduce

myself. I have been more than a little intimatidated about posting because I am

not a writer and so many of you on here write beautiful, heart wrenchingly

truthful messages. I really hate writing outside of my job but I am getting used

to keeping the journal as I work the book.

I am a newbie to 's teachings. I discovered the podcasts when I discovered

the book and this site. I have listened to the first 7 or so and it has really

made a difference. Even my therapist noticed that I seem more relaxed in our

last session. I do feel much less compulsive around food and some long held

vices.

I have about 50 pounds to lose and after Chapter 1 of the book I really feel

that I can do it. I've maintained a 1200 to 1500 calorie meal plan this week and

have lost almost 6 pounds so far. I am inspired by all the good messages coming

at me since signing up here and in the class.

I am 58 and I have struggled with my weight and yo yo dieting since age 12 when

my perfectly slim mother put me on Weight Watchers.In my teens and twenties I

took diety pills to lose weight and in my thirties I discovered a great program

called Diets Don't Work by a guy named Schwartz or Schultz or something like

that. It was very effective and 's work really reminds me of it. In my

forties it was Atkins. I lost with all of them, up to 80 pounds in some cases

but the weight has always come back. I am at a point in my life now where I just

want to let go - I want it over with and I have great hope for the Fullfilled

process, my therapy and my work with a dietician.

As a few of you have shared, I too have been stuck in the feelings of inadequacy

and worthlessness for a long time. I am working at quieting the dysfunctional

thoughts I grew up with. I have done some of Byron 's spiritual work in

questioning whether those core beliefs are actually true. I need to get back

into a regular practice of this again.

Also, like many of you have said, I tend to hang back, not get involved socially

and I am incredibly lonely. I have not made one lasting friendship since moving

to Arizona 7 years ago. I come home to a sweet dog and a noisy parrot each

evening and try to numb myself out with pot in front of the television. I'm

happy to report that I haven't done that once since logging on here in the past

week.

I am really counting on you all as my lifeline as I work the book over the next

six weeks. I hope to be able to support you too.

I love to talk on the phone and will put my cell phone number out there if you

want to talk: .

All the best,

Marie