First aid for mom's-venting

November 24, 2010

I haven't been on in awhile-healing from surgery, etc. My 7 yr old son, OCD,

sensory, PDD-nos has been just awful the past two weeks. We have the nightly

meltdown every evening between 5-7 ( never know when it will strike or for what

reason). He only does it for me. He attacks me, destroys the apartment ( tonight

he ripped up a school library book).). His dad works third shift so this is all

while dad is trying to sleep and usually he wakes dad up-then dad gets mad at

me. Tonight I had him restrained physically because he was damaging everything.

I got no help from his dad and just coldness after our son had calmed down. I am

sitting here crying and feeling like I did something awful. I know I can't count

on his dad's support-he is cold and blames me. My son only acts up for me (

though last week he did it in the presence of his therapist). Today was the last

day he saw his living support person who he has seen for a year ( he still has

his therapist, doc and new living support person)and I am sure that triggered

alot, only hours later it came out, but he was so out of control.And usually I

remove myself from the situation so he cannot get attention for his meltdowns

and yes he has consequences but I feel so alone and like my husband sees ME as

the problem. I just want to cancel thanksgiving because as awful as this sounds

I feel like I don't have much to be thankful for ( I know that isn't true but it

feels that way). I cannot take one more night of fighting this kid. I am

stressed to the limit. Then lets add in the compulsions and anxiety and

everything else. I also just went back to work but he stared the tantrums before

that happened.

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