Re: Crisis of faith - Note to all

[Guest guest]

Bonnie, I'm writing you personally. ((hugs))

Our " email etiquette " rules say~~~

" Please avoid all references to political or religious affiliations

or ideologies because our list membership consists of individuals from

many countries, religions, cultures, and political entities. This

prohibition is not intended as an exclusion of the discussion of

scrupulosity as it presents in the lives of our children. Our intent

is the prohibition of proselyting of individual political, cultural, or

religious beliefs. "

Because I don't know how to reply to you without it being " religious " in nature,

I'm taking it outside the group.

And, in NO way am I implying you shouldn't have asked the questions you did.

I'm VERY GLAD you did. It gives those who want to respond an opportunity to

encourage you. I just feel better taking my answer outside the group because it

includes references to God and Scripture. And I would encourage others to do

the same, who are replying with religious implications. I'm sure some would be

encouraged by the answers given, but others, who are not believers, might be

offended, and that's what is trying to be avoided.

Hugs and prayers to you, Bonnie.

BJ

Co-Moderator

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> Wondering if any of you have ever questioned why God would let something so

terrible affect your child? Do you wonder what purpose it serves? Do you have a

hard time being " thankful " ?

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> No matter what, things can always be worse and I hate to even think of those

scenarios. However, I question benevolence. I wonder why I - a person who had

a really tough upbringing, who pulled myself up and got myself through college,

who took care of sick people all my life, and tried to do the right things - has

a child who is so difficult and needy? Some say that God only gives you what

you can handle, but what happens when I feel like I can't handle it anymore? My

spirit is in need - what to do then?

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> Bonnie

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[Guest guest]

Oops! Meant. . I'm writing to you personally, OUTSIDE the group. So, you will

receive my response in your personal email.

Hugs,

BJ

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> > Wondering if any of you have ever questioned why God would let something so

terrible affect your child? Do you wonder what purpose it serves? Do you have a

hard time being " thankful " ?

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> > No matter what, things can always be worse and I hate to even think of those

scenarios. However, I question benevolence. I wonder why I - a person who had

a really tough upbringing, who pulled myself up and got myself through college,

who took care of sick people all my life, and tried to do the right things - has

a child who is so difficult and needy? Some say that God only gives you what

you can handle, but what happens when I feel like I can't handle it anymore? My

spirit is in need - what to do then?

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> > Bonnie

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[Guest guest]

I understand. I just wondered if some felt bewildered at times. I am truly a

believer that faith is personal and I have no ills against any one faith or no

fith at all.

Bonnie

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> > Wondering if any of you have ever questioned why God would let something so

terrible affect your child? Do you wonder what purpose it serves? Do you have a

hard time being " thankful " ?

> >

> > No matter what, things can always be worse and I hate to even think of those

scenarios. However, I question benevolence. I wonder why I - a person who had

a really tough upbringing, who pulled myself up and got myself through college,

who took care of sick people all my life, and tried to do the right things - has

a child who is so difficult and needy? Some say that God only gives you what

you can handle, but what happens when I feel like I can't handle it anymore? My

spirit is in need - what to do then?

> >

> > Bonnie

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[Guest guest]

Thank you for being so understanding, Bonnie. I really appreciate it.

I'm sure other have (been bewildered) too. I have. I'm sure you will get other

responses, besides mine, in your email. ) I'm sure others were touched by

your question too. OCD sure can make life a struggle. <sigh>

I'm so sorry you are going through such a rough time of it.

One thing I included in my email to you, that I'm sure others here would like to

know too is. . .

How is doing? Last you posted, he had improved a little. Is he doing

worse again?

Big Hugs,

BJ

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> I understand. I just wondered if some felt bewildered at times. I am truly a

believer that faith is personal and I have no ills against any one faith or no

fith at all.

>

> Bonnie

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[Guest guest]

Well, I am meeting with the district tomorrow to discuss a different school

placement.

We tried to increase Matt's Seroquel over the weekend with disastrous results.

He is maxed out on his mood stabilzers (blood levels). His pdoc pretty much

said he was frustrated and unsure. I took him way down on the Seroquel with

some positive results over the past 2 days (less anxiety, panic).

He got a report card today with 3 B's and 4 A's. In sum, he is doing better.

I will feel better when he has a school to go to and has some success there.

Also I am waiting for his bloodwork subsequent to our visit in NYC. We go back

there in Dec and may try some other, older antianxiety drug, or we may wait to

see what the structure of school and therapy provide.

I have come to the conclusion that meds for may be a limited success

factor - the rest will be therapeutic work and some tears and waiting.

Regardless I think that a smaller class size will be beneficial no matter what.

I am praying that the school nearest to me will be a good match - it would make

me feel better about it all.

Love you all,

Bonnie

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> > I understand. I just wondered if some felt bewildered at times. I am truly

a believer that faith is personal and I have no ills against any one faith or no

fith at all.

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> > Bonnie

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[Guest guest]

I hope that goes well for you tomorrow, Bonnie. Please update us. Will be

praying the closer school will be a good match too.

So sorry you had to go through that this weekend. Poor Matt. I'm glad that

lowering it made him feel better.

Good job with the grades! It always amazes me how these kids excel in spite of

OCD, anxiety, etc.

I hope you are able to find a medication that can help, even if it's an older

one.

Josh is the same. . The medication has helped, but is limited. Therapy helped

with more, yet still OCD is present. Sometimes more present than other times,

but always there.

improved before, I hope he gets back there soon. When Josh had his

horrible relapse, that kept me going. . Just hanging onto the fact that he'd

gotten better before. I made myself focus on the belief that he would get there

again. That gave me hope and helped me get through the days.

Hugs,

BJ

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> > > I understand. I just wondered if some felt bewildered at times. I am

truly a believer that faith is personal and I have no ills against any one faith

or no fith at all.

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> > > Bonnie

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