- Hello form a stranger

[Guest guest]

Hi Everyone,

I wanted to say Hello to everyone old and new. Over the past 3 weeks things

here have been so rough. First, I need to have surgery on March 22 to remove

lymph nodes in my neck and my thyroid gland.It seems I have developed antibodies

to mt thyroid gland and it is causeing problems with my voice and swollowing.

Then My older brother ,, Age 36 and who has had parkingsons for 12 years had

a fever of 109.2 and is unresponsive. They have stoped my brother's tube

feedings and only give him a week or so.He is now on Hospice at the hospital and

is only on comfort measures only. It has been so difficult to see and watch my

brother dying.I have lost 15-20 pounds due to not eating or holding down food

and I spend most nights at the hospital doing night duty with my brother.I am

now also in a full flare with pain ,swelling, rash and fever.I came home from

the hospital yesterday at 11am and have been in bed since. I am so tired but I

can not sleep. Then I saw my biological mother after 20 years and years of abuse

from her when I was a child. So I have had to deal with all those feelings

again. I am rrying to not fight with her for my brothers sake. He needs to have

closer and peace before he dies and I want him to have it.

I saw my doctor on friday who wants me admitted to a hospital. I can not do

that right now.Plus because of the surgery I have to stop my every 4 week

treatment of remicaide and can not have it again until after the surgery. So I

am in pain and just trying to keep my self together. I feel like I have no time

to think of myself due to thinking of my Family first. Is this a normal

reaction???

I want to say thank you to lynn who has called me a numerous times. I hope you

are all doing well. I think of all of you often eventhough I have not posted or

called anyone.

Love,

Danni