Re: Worthiness issues - Margaret

January 2, 2003

Margaret wrote:

Sweet , I'd love to hear your response to 'what's the worst

that could happen if romantic love came into my life'? Only if you

feel like responding, naturally.

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Margaret - I truly appreciate your compassionate response. Please forgive

me for not responding right away - I'm on digest mode.

OK - what's the worst that could happen if romantic love came into my life?

I could end up feeling hurt or hurting someone else (or being rejected or

rejecting someone else). Even though intellectually I realize that if I

feel hurt that's my business and if another feels hurt that's their

business.

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I remember having a lot of fear before my present partner appeared. I

hadn't had sex in five years, I had put on lots of weight, my

digestive system was poor and I had a lot of gas - I guess this

sounds funny but you wouldn't believe the amount of shame and

unworthiness I felt. It was difficult to imagine someone desiring me

and what if we were having sex and I had smelly gas!!

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Wow - I can identify with this!!!! Being 52, I'm done with menopause, and

with it came 40 pounds and no waistline, not to mention whiskers! A few

years ago, I shared a bedroom with a guy at the home of a friend - single

beds. In the middle of the night I heard him get up, take his blanket and

pillow and leave the room. I asked him what was wrong and he said that I

had been snoring so loudly that he couldn't sleep. I was mortified! The

next day we talked about it, and again, I was grateful that I was able to

not blame him for my feelings, but I have to say that I've gone out of my

way never to share a bedroom with anyone since then.

Hmmmm - maybe if I found a guy who's hard of hearing???? LOL!

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Now if I could just know that all my fears about marching into the

world are just as unwarranted and unreal.

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Well, what would be your answer to the same question that you asked me?

What's the worst that could happen if I began financially supporting myself?

Best regards,

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