Cleanse

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In a message dated 1/2/2003 12:14:58 PM Pacific Standard Time,

notetoapril@... writes:

> The last time I " heard " you talk on the list you were concerned about

> smells and stuff at the cleanse and feeling sick. How did that go for

> you?

Yeah, I had done a lot of Work around the potential for feeling sick from

smells at the cleanse...that's for sure! : )

Whether or not people were wearing scented things, I'm not so sure. What I

noticed was that the people I was sitting around each day weren't. I also

didn't smell air freshners, incense, etc...filling the room with a pervading

scent. It smelled quite fine in there to me. : )

I don't remember if it was you, April...or maybe Carol...who asked me, Are

you sure that even if there weren't smells at the cleanse that you wouldn't

feel sick anyway? And no, I couldn't know that. I ended up having some body

things that came up even though they didn't seem to be connected to anything

I was smelling. The first day was the roughest for me body wise...and as I

experienced the sensitivities in my body, my thoughts ran wild and some

places for some deep Work came up. I feel really proud of the Work I did

while I was at the cleanse. And I love feeling proud of it.

I remember worrying that I'd miss out on the stuff that was happening in the

room if I got sick and had to sit outside. Well, it ends up that I willingly

left the room many times on my own...to get some air, go do Work with a

facilitator, go out for lunch or just go home early! We even got there late

with our commuting most days and I was fine with it. My stories of feeling

like I was missing out because I paid for something really dropped away and I

was just so grateful for the moments that I did spend there. On New Year's

Eve we arrived after lunch...just around the time that the songs played while

the guys let their sadness and tears come out. I remember thinking that it

was perfect timing. I wasn't wondering what kind of Work had taken place in

the morning session...I was just so happy to have arrived when I did.

Experiencing that helped me come to more understanding about my relationship

with my dad. So I'm really thankful for that.

I loved being at the cleanse, and I love being at my new home here in

California!

It feels soooo good to be back. : )

Thanks for writing, April. I'd like to go to the school too, so maybe we'll

spend more time with each other in March. : )

Loveness,

*mona