Guest guest Posted November 18, 2002 Report Share Posted November 18, 2002 Oops. **That last post to Carol was supposed to be sent directly to her mailbox. True? Obviously not because I sent it to the list on accident. Oh well. My tears are flowing and I am upset that at my *young age of 26* I'm applying for SS disability. I hate it and I'm going to go eat some lunch. Those of you wishing you were young and doing the work like me...would you also like to be filing for disability? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 18, 2002 Report Share Posted November 18, 2002 I am upset that I am twice Mona's age and am attracted to her energy. I am upset that while my comtemporaries are " successful lawyers, whatever, I am still mucking about living payday to payday (barely). I am upset that I have to call the doctor today to get more zoloft for my depression. I am upset that I have so much to offer and no one seems to want what I have. I am upset about the 19.5 years I have spent doing work I hate. I am upset that I create dramas in my life to create stress in my life, to create low self esteem. I am upset that I fully " got the work " at my first public session and yet have to force myself to do it. I am upset about having a pacemaker before being 50. I am upset about the pain in my leg when I try to walk fast. I am upset cause thought I would get judgments about me, and am waiting. Oops. **That last post to Carol was supposed to be sent directly to her mailbox. True? Obviously not because I sent it to the list on accident. Oh well. My tears are flowing and I am upset that at my *young age of 26* I'm applying for SS disability. I hate it and I'm going to go eat some lunch. Those of you wishing you were young and doing the work like me...would you also like to be filing for disability? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 18, 2002 Report Share Posted November 18, 2002 Dear Tepet, I was very touched to read your post. Thank you for coming out, for joining us in our human condition, in our 'one mind'. I am feeling much closer to you. love, Margaret > I am upset that I am twice Mona's age and am attracted to her energy. I am upset that while my comtemporaries are " successful lawyers, whatever, I am still mucking about living payday to payday (barely). I am upset that I have to call the doctor today to get more zoloft for my depression. I am upset that I have so much to offer and no one seems to want what I have. I am upset about the 19.5 years I have spent doing work I hate. I am upset that I create dramas in my life to create stress in my life, to create low self esteem. I am upset that I fully " got the work " at my first public session and yet have to force myself to do it. I am upset about having a pacemaker before being 50. I am upset about the pain in my leg when I try to walk fast. I am upset cause thought I would get judgments about me, and am waiting. > Oops. > > > **That last post to Carol was supposed to be sent directly to her mailbox. > True? Obviously not because I sent it to the list on accident. > Oh well. > > My tears are flowing and I am upset that at my *young age of 26* I'm applying > for SS disability. I hate it and I'm going to go eat some lunch. > > Those of you wishing you were young and doing the work like me...would you > also like to be filing for disability? > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 18, 2002 Report Share Posted November 18, 2002 It was time. You all showed the way. Oops. > > > **That last post to Carol was supposed to be sent directly to her mailbox. > True? Obviously not because I sent it to the list on accident. > Oh well. > > My tears are flowing and I am upset that at my *young age of 26* I'm applying > for SS disability. I hate it and I'm going to go eat some lunch. > > Those of you wishing you were young and doing the work like me...would you > also like to be filing for disability? > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 18, 2002 Report Share Posted November 18, 2002 " Those of you wishing you were young and doing the work like me...would you also like to be filing for disability? " Mona, I'm imagining the surrendered place this experience will help take you into and the sweetness of that. And we are all equally disabled, so incredibly disabled in our thinking. Love, Margaret > **That last post to Carol was supposed to be sent directly to her mailbox. > True? Obviously not because I sent it to the list on accident. > Oh well. > > My tears are flowing and I am upset that at my *young age of 26* I'm applying > for SS disability. I hate it and I'm going to go eat some lunch. > > Those of you wishing you were young and doing the work like me...would you > also like to be filing for disability? > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 18, 2002 Report Share Posted November 18, 2002 Tepet, You thought you would get judgements about you, and are waiting. Is that true? I see tons of judgements right here in your post. Just replace, " I am upset that... " with " It shouldn't be that... " Love, Bev > > > I am upset that I am twice Mona's age and am attracted to her > energy. I am upset that while my comtemporaries are " successful > lawyers, whatever, I am still mucking about living payday to payday > (barely). I am upset that I have to call the doctor today to get > more zoloft for my depression. I am upset that I have so much to > offer and no one seems to want what I have. I am upset about the > 19.5 years I have spent doing work I hate. I am upset that I create > dramas in my life to create stress in my life, to create low self > esteem. I am upset that I fully " got the work " at my first > public session and yet have to force myself to do it. I am upset > about having a pacemaker before being 50. I am upset about the pain > in my leg when I try to walk fast. I am upset cause thought I would > get judgments about me, and am waiting. > > ----- Original Message ----- Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 18, 2002 Report Share Posted November 18, 2002 Me too, Tepet. Thank you. -heidi > > I am upset that I am twice Mona's age and am attracted to her > energy. I am upset that while my comtemporaries are " successful > lawyers, whatever, I am still mucking about living payday to payday > (barely). I am upset that I have to call the doctor today to get > more zoloft for my depression. I am upset that I have so much to > offer and no one seems to want what I have. I am upset about the > 19.5 years I have spent doing work I hate. I am upset that I create > dramas in my life to create stress in my life, to create low self > esteem. I am upset that I fully " got the work " at my first > public session and yet have to force myself to do it. I am upset > about having a pacemaker before being 50. I am upset about the pain > in my leg when I try to walk fast. I am upset cause thought I would > get judgments about me, and am waiting. > > Oops. > > > > > > **That last post to Carol was supposed to be sent directly to her > mailbox. > > True? Obviously not because I sent it to the list on accident. > > Oh well. > > > > My tears are flowing and I am upset that at my *young age of 26* > I'm applying > > for SS disability. I hate it and I'm going to go eat some lunch. > > > > Those of you wishing you were young and doing the work like > me...would you > > also like to be filing for disability? > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 18, 2002 Report Share Posted November 18, 2002 Thanks Bev, I did that deliberately. Some time ago, someone posted that they had a thought that I thought I was someone with all the answers....Not True, unless it is. So, I posted what is going on with me. I have found that " pretending to know, or have the answers " is a way I separate from you and from others. And it is not my truth that I have the " answers " at all. Re: Re: Oops. Tepet, You thought you would get judgements about you, and are waiting. Is that true? I see tons of judgements right here in your post. Just replace, " I am upset that... " with " It shouldn't be that... " Love, Bev > > > I am upset that I am twice Mona's age and am attracted to her > energy. I am upset that while my comtemporaries are " successful > lawyers, whatever, I am still mucking about living payday to payday > (barely). I am upset that I have to call the doctor today to get > more zoloft for my depression. I am upset that I have so much to > offer and no one seems to want what I have. I am upset about the > 19.5 years I have spent doing work I hate. I am upset that I create > dramas in my life to create stress in my life, to create low self > esteem. I am upset that I fully " got the work " at my first > public session and yet have to force myself to do it. I am upset > about having a pacemaker before being 50. I am upset about the pain > in my leg when I try to walk fast. I am upset cause thought I would > get judgments about me, and am waiting. > > ----- Original Message ----- Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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