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Greetings,

Hi all, my name is Bridget but most people just call me Nash… because

of the nic as I am sure you can see. I am located in Western Mass and

I am a stay at home mom with 2 boys. I have not been diagnosed with

anything except 3 discs that are slipping in my lower back. I have

suffered some time now with extreme pain. I have been to pain clinics

and am being treated with perc and soma. I had no idea what

Fibromyalgia was until about a year ago. I was talking with a friend

about the pain I am in and she questioned if that was what was going

on. She said that her mom has been suffering with it for years. I

pretty much blew off what she told me because I was convinced that my

problem was the slipped discs. I was also told that my spine is

degenerating and that the muscles in my back are so tight that it is

causing my spine to move. I was told that this was all found in a

series of MRI's that I had done. These diagnoses came from doctors at

a pain clinic that I was referred to. It did not take very long for

me to see that the pain clinic I was attending was out for one

reason…. To create as many drug addicts as they could.

I say that because a friend of mine went there and informed them that

she is a recovering drug addict hoping they would help her some other

way. They helped her alright by filling her with as many narcotics as

they could write out scripts for. They were giving me shots along

with the narcotics but the moment I asked if we could try PT or

something else that would mean less narcotics because I was having

the worse time trying to function they said no. I mean they gave me

scripts for more narcotics and pretty much dismissed me. I went to

see my PCP and he sent me to another pain clinic. They were much

better because they gave me the opportunity to detox off some of the

stuff I was on. The doctors had me on methadone and that stuff made

me into a total zombie. I was unable to sleep, I lost about 30 pounds

in less then 6 weeks, I had no desire to eat or to even function for

that matter. That story goes on and on. I mean what I have been

through because of it. It is bad enough I am going to bore you with

telling you what is going on now to add that in would have you

reading till 2007 LOL.

When I was detoxing off the methadone I started to notice that I was

having pains that were more extreme then what I recall having. I

thought for sure it was nothing more than withdrawals, but that

seemed a little odd since I was still on pain meds.. That finally let

up a little when I was done detoxing and was left with only the

percs. Then the winter started to set in and all hell has broken

loose. I have this feeling on a regular basis like I have the worse

fever ever. The cold air rips through my body like daggers. December

26th it rained here. I was out walking to pick up my son. That was my

birthday and my husband took me to Mohegan sun. I was picking my boy

up from his grandmothers because she baby sat for us. The rain was

not heavy but it was cold. Every drop that hit my head felt like

icicles piercing my brain. I ended up spending most of the day in bed

because the pain was unbearable.

I have been telling my doctors about all of this pain. The feeling of

having the flu is the worse. God forbid anyone should attempt to

touch me. I feel daily like my period is getting ready to start. I am

talking about the sensitivity in my chest that comes along with

menstruation. I do not sleep very well at night and I find myself

dragging through out the day. My husband tells me that when I am

asleep at night my body twitches like mad. It is bad enough to where

it wakes him. He is not surprised that I am tired all day long.

This is affecting my life to an extreme now. I am only 34 years old

and I feel older then my dad. At thanksgiving he actually apologized

because he reckons that I have this because he does. He told me his

grandfather had it and so does he. He has listened to me go on

describing the pain and says he reckons it is rheumatoid arthritis.

My doctor told me that although it is obvious I am in the beginning

stages of having arthritis in my spine it is not to the extreme that

should cause this many problems.

I am totally aware that you folks are not medical professionals but

to be honest I have found that the information that comes from people

who suffer with it is more informative then any doctor can give. I

have not been diagnosed as I said. The only thing I know is that I

suffer daily. This is starting to become a very depressing situation.

I have always been an extremely out going person who never spent time

at home. I mean unless I had to of course. I want desperately to get

back to some sort of being normal. The pain is not as bad in the

summer or when the temps are some what warm.

I am sorry, I am about to go on complaining and I know that must get

a little old. I just don't know what to do with myself anymore. This

feels like it is tearing my life apart one body part at a time. So I

guess I am wondering if by any chance any one here might know what I

am talking about. As I said I had no idea what Fibromyalgia was until

December 26th. I decided to get on line and see if I could find it.

When I read over the " symptoms " of it I was blown away by how much of

it I live with daily. I am not trying to diagnose myself but I must

admit it comes so close to home I cannot help but wonder. Oh yes and

on top of the pain I also suffer with extreme IBS and my menstruation

cycle is so screwed up that the doctors are worried if it is

something else. Just out of curiosity what do you folks think?