Afraid to Work-Mona

[Guest guest]

Thanks Mona for that piece and for your openess. I've been closed

down for awhile and not wanting to open up some raw places. It always

feels like my life is falling apart and my ability to function on a

day-to-day basis will suffer from getting too wrapped up in " Work Issues " .

So I think it's tme to do some Work on the Work.

I don't like the Work because to never seems to end.

1. true? No 2. No 3. Actually it feels okay to acknowledge that the

Work doesn't end until it does. And sometimes it does. But in the

moment I feel that the Work should be done and it isn't, boy am I at

war. 3a Yes I can see a reason to drop the thought that the Work

never seems to end. 3b I actually find it to be a powerful thought

right now. Saying that the Work doesn't end feels truer and more

powerful than wishing it would all end. 4. I'd be free inside and

noticing that the Work is a good vehicle to become free.

t/a I do like the work because it never seems to end. I like the Work

because it brings an end to my mental suffering. I don't like my

thinking that never seems to end.

I should be growing and able to move beyond the Work.

1. true? No. 2. No. 3. I feel arrogant and distant and guarded with

myself and others. I feel like I'm betraying myself in a subtle way.

I feel superior to God and above needing the truth. I also feel

impatient and unloving towards myself.

3a. Yes 3b. No.

4. I'd be in a kinder, more humble space with myself and others.

t/a I shouldn't be growing and able to move beyond the Work.

I should be growing and able to move beyond my thinking. I should be

contracting and unable to move beyond the Work. Yeah that one has a

charge.

The Work is stupid because it doesn't help me find new ways to solve

problems.

1 & 2. No

3. I feel stuck and in a blaming place. I feel angry and closed down.

I move deeper into fear and anxiety. 3a. Yes. 3b. No.

4. I wuld be a friend. I'd be clearer and able to see beyond

" problems " . I'd be in a space where solutions were more easily revealed.

t/a My thinking is stupid because it doesn't help me find new ways

solve problems. The Work is so simple and it's the perfect solution

for stupid, closed-minded thinking. Amen.

The Work is only for people with deep seated emotional problems and

traumas.

1 & 2. No

3. I feel separate and frightened of people with " deep " problems. I

feel my problems are too deep to resolve. I retreat further into

isolation. I feel falsely superior.

3a. Yes. 3b. No

4. I'd be more able to meet my own and others thoughts with more

understanding and compassion.

t/a The Work is for anybody, including people with " deep-seated

emotional problems and traumas " .

I want the Work to be my wonderdrug.

Hopeless.

t/a: I want my thinking to be wonderful. The Work is a wonderdrug

with no side-effects.

I am afraid to open up to people doing the Work because it will mean

that I am flawed and fucked up and so damn needy all the time.

Opening up and being honest means you are flawed and fucked-up and

needy, is it true?

1 & 2. No. 3. I feel more attached to being flawed and fucked-up. I

feel more needy and helpless and impatient. 3a. yes 3b. yesyesyes.

4. I'd be laughing and understanding around the idea of being " flawed

and fucked-up " .

t/a Opening up doesn't mean you are flawed etc. Opening up means you

are opening up.

***

***Needy people are a drag to be around.

1 & 2. True? No. Can't know for sure.

3. It feels scary and needy and false.

4. I'd be more relaxed and giving around " needy " people.

t/a: My thinking is a drag to be around. Yes, it is at times.

And BTW whose business is it when a person acts needy...?

Doing the Work makes me depressed.

1. true? No 2. No 3. I feel depressed. 4. I'd be more aware of

what's going on inside me.

t/a. Not doing the Work makes me depressed. Doing the work sets me free.

I don't ever want feel the pain that drives me to do the Work again.

t/a I'm willing to feel the pain etc. I look forward to feeling the

pain that drives me to do the Work.

truly,

[Guest guest]

My hat is off to you as well...Doug...Thanks....Arlene

" Doug Fulton wrote:Thanks Mona

for that piece and for your openess. I've been closed

down for awhile and not wanting to open up some raw places. It always

feels like my life is falling apart and my ability to function on a

day-to-day basis will suffer from getting too wrapped up in " Work Issues " .

So I think it's tme to do some Work on the Work.

I don't like the Work because to never seems to end.

1. true? No 2. No 3. Actually it feels okay to acknowledge that the

Work doesn't end until it does. And sometimes it does. But in the

moment I feel that the Work should be done and it isn't, boy am I at

war. 3a Yes I can see a reason to drop the thought that the Work

never seems to end. 3b I actually find it to be a powerful thought

right now. Saying that the Work doesn't end feels truer and more

powerful than wishing it would all end. 4. I'd be free inside and

noticing that the Work is a good vehicle to become free.

t/a I do like the work because it never seems to end. I like the Work

because it brings an end to my mental suffering. I don't like my

thinking that never seems to end.

I should be growing and able to move beyond the Work.

1. true? No. 2. No. 3. I feel arrogant and distant and guarded with

myself and others. I feel like I'm betraying myself in a subtle way.

I feel superior to God and above needing the truth. I also feel

impatient and unloving towards myself.

3a. Yes 3b. No.

4. I'd be in a kinder, more humble space with myself and others.

t/a I shouldn't be growing and able to move beyond the Work.

I should be growing and able to move beyond my thinking. I should be

contracting and unable to move beyond the Work. Yeah that one has a

charge.

The Work is stupid because it doesn't help me find new ways to solve

problems.

1 & 2. No

3. I feel stuck and in a blaming place. I feel angry and closed down.

I move deeper into fear and anxiety. 3a. Yes. 3b. No.

4. I wuld be a friend. I'd be clearer and able to see beyond

" problems " . I'd be in a space where solutions were more easily revealed.

t/a My thinking is stupid because it doesn't help me find new ways

solve problems. The Work is so simple and it's the perfect solution

for stupid, closed-minded thinking. Amen.

The Work is only for people with deep seated emotional problems and

traumas.

1 & 2. No

3. I feel separate and frightened of people with " deep " problems. I

feel my problems are too deep to resolve. I retreat further into

isolation. I feel falsely superior.

3a. Yes. 3b. No

4. I'd be more able to meet my own and others thoughts with more

understanding and compassion.

t/a The Work is for anybody, including people with " deep-seated

emotional problems and traumas " .

I want the Work to be my wonderdrug.

Hopeless.

t/a: I want my thinking to be wonderful. The Work is a wonderdrug

with no side-effects.

I am afraid to open up to people doing the Work because it will mean

that I am flawed and fucked up and so damn needy all the time.

Opening up and being honest means you are flawed and fucked-up and

needy, is it true?

1 & 2. No. 3. I feel more attached to being flawed and fucked-up. I

feel more needy and helpless and impatient. 3a. yes 3b. yesyesyes.

4. I'd be laughing and understanding around the idea of being " flawed

and fucked-up " .

t/a Opening up doesn't mean you are flawed etc. Opening up means you

are opening up.

***

***Needy people are a drag to be around.

1 & 2. True? No. Can't know for sure.

3. It feels scary and needy and false.

4. I'd be more relaxed and giving around " needy " people.

t/a: My thinking is a drag to be around. Yes, it is at times.

And BTW whose business is it when a person acts needy...?

Doing the Work makes me depressed.

1. true? No 2. No 3. I feel depressed. 4. I'd be more aware of

what's going on inside me.

t/a. Not doing the Work makes me depressed. Doing the work sets me free.

I don't ever want feel the pain that drives me to do the Work again.

t/a I'm willing to feel the pain etc. I look forward to feeling the

pain that drives me to do the Work.

truly,