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hi my name is christina and im a 35 year old single mother of two, i

have a nice apartment and my own car and i cut hair for a living....i

know i have a huge self asteam problem which lures me to men who are no

good for me...im currently mixed up with the most awful man i have ever

met yet im chasing him around and waiting for his phone calls while he

is out all hours of the night...for example he called me at 2:30 am this

morning and i was just so glad that he called me!...i deserve better

then that i know but i still wait around for him....then for comfort i

turn to my abusive X husband who came over to my home last wed night and

beat the crap out of me in front of my two teenage sons....i guess i

just think these men will change

this past month i have really gotten myself into a deep depression, all

i can think about day and night is this man who clearly dosnt care about

me and as a result i dont eat and have lost lots of weight ...i dont

sleep at night and have taken lots of sleeping pills every night...i

dont clean my home and even found a dead mouse in my hallway last

week...i force myself to go to work and when im there i dont have much

concentration on my work....because of insurance reasons i was unable to

get back into therapy but that has never worked in the past anyway i

have called the suicide help line and that didnt really help

either.....i know that the problem is with in me and i know its because

of my negative thinking and i want to get this stupid guy OUT OF MY

HEAD!.....thanks for reading