why am I embarrassed?

[Guest guest]

I live in upstate New York. Right now there is probably about 2-3 feet of snow

on the ground. It will remain this way until April. I don't leave the house much

at all, unless its to go to a dr's appt. because I'm tired all the time. But,

during the winter, its like I'm completely homebound. Today, I went out to get

a Christmas present and had to walk a total of maybe 100 yards and I must

have almost fallen about 10 times. Upon entering a store that I hadn't been to

in about a year, but know the clerk from ages ago, her response was " what the

heck has happened to you? You're hobbling around like an old woman. " So, I think

maybe its time to get a cane, but then I've got some issues with that.

First, I'm only 28, people are going to look at me cross-eyed, but probably no

more than they do now I guess, since I limp most everywhere I go.

Second, We don't really have a " selection " around here, there are a few in the

pharmacies and thats it and they are not cheap and honestly I can't really

afford them. My insurance would pay for it, but then I'd have to ask my doctor

for a prescription and then he's going to look at me like... what do you need

that for?!

Then I think to myself, well if I'm too embarrassed about getting one now,

then maybe I don't need one that badly. But I just looked outside a few minutes

ago, because I wanted to bring my neighbor the muffins I baked for her and I'm

too scared to go, because I don't want to fall on the ice. I guess I'm babbling,

thanx for the vent. I pray you all are having warm good nights.

kerri sue

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