answering machine and caller id

[Guest guest]

I do have both and I have turned my answering machine volume down to its lowest.

Unfortuanately you can still hear the voice talking into it. It is low but I

don't think low enough for me.

I have thought of changing my number but I thought that would still let her have

that control over me. And as for a restraining order, my brother -in-law is an

attorney and my husband and I have talked to him about this situation. His

family will take our children if we were to die and we have explicity rules

concerning our children to never be unsupervised around my mother, my siblings

and my aunts. I also made sure they have power of attorney should anything

happen to me while my husband isn't here. He also knows at any time I may ask

for a restraining order---that thought has crossed my mind many times.

I do not want to live in this fear, unfortunately I remember specific things

that happened and I just can't get them out of my mind. Nightime is horrible

for me especially---I can't sleep. On nights that I can actually fall to sleep

I usually wake up in the middle of the night to be up for several hours.

I use to lay in bed with the covers pulled up under my chin and I would hear

every single noise in my house. I would lay so stiff that I would actually hold

my breath. My mother would come into my room and just stand over my bed

staring at me.oh, I hated that. She would just stand there staring at me. oh,

it gives me shivers just thinking about that.

Now as an adult I still lay in bed and feel so petrified. We have never had the

lights off in my house at night. And now since my husband isn't here, at

night I sleep with my shoes on.

I would just love to relax, I'm not so sure I even know what that word means.

Aimee

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