pain & depression

[Guest guest]

Good=morning to all! PLease forgive me for what I am about to write. I

am in a very bad way. I can only imagine what my neighbors must think

if they can hear here. I live in condos and we are connected. I can't

keep living like this. I don't know what to do. I feel like I am being

tortured my daughter. For being ill. For having whatever the hell i

have. Auto-immune crap. I am so sick and tired of being sick and tired.

I am tired of the hooops I have to jump throug to get good help from

what is now a business. ANd they call themselves doctors. It make me

sick. If I am not crazy.... I sure will be soon. The way I feel I feel

like I am losing it and am going to go insane. I am not normal. My

behavior this morning is not mnornal. To wake up and within half and

hour be screaming and crying. Like a breakdown or something> is that

normal???? I need help and I don't know what to do. I am on prednisone

and I think that does not effect me very well but what the heck am I

supposed to do when I have to take it or I can't walk. The inflamation

is so bad. I am just SO TIRED!!!!

If there is a God where is he? Marie