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Dear Friends...times have been bumpy...still in the fibro flare from

h-e-double-hockey-stix, and now have some RA flare in my hands, especially my

middle fingers. Also have some psoriasis popping up. If things don't start

settling down in the next week or so I will go see my rheumy...it is time to go

see him anyway. I hope all this is 'just' a flare and that the Humira and Mtx.

continue to work.

As often happens, my emotional side has been choppy as well. So sad and lost

some of the time, ok at other times. I am keeping up with my friends and

family, cooking, doing everyday things, then if I need to nap, I nap. There is

still a lot of pain in my hips during the night. I did have the lipoma removed

Friday, and though it is now tender, it already feels better not having it

pressing on my nerves.

There has been so much depression and anxiety. I may need to talk to my dr

about those meds...it is so hard to tell how much of those issues are caused by

not feeling physically well, and how much are caused by old stuff, and just life

stuff. But, it is a constant struggle.

But staying busier helps the emotions. My son had his 30th birthday this past

weekend, and he requested a Boston Creme Pie, so I made him one, and some Lemon

Bars as well, and we had a big family potluck. I know I am blessed with much

love.

When I worked for those few weeks, of course I had to report those earnings to

SS. Well, somehow there has been a goof up and it could possibly affect my

expected pension for October 1st (I did not make enough for it to lessen my

pension, but still have to report.). I talked with a very nice worker today who

is trying to straighten things out before then. I would so appreciate your

prayers as I do depend on those funds for my monthly rent, bills, etc. I've

done all I can, and now I need to trust.

I started seeing a counselor a month or two ago. I haven't had the greatest

luck with counselor's in the past, but this fellow is a keeper. I saw him

today, and cried the entire session. But, he was so gentle, and so helpful and

encouraging. I feel blessed to have him help me with this 'life stuff'.

Thank you to everyone of you, the one's who write, the one's who lurk, all who

make this place their home. I am sorry to not be as active as I once was. But

know you are all in my heart and in my prayers. I so appreciate knowing this

place is here with all you dear souls. What would we do without each other?

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((All of You)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Tenderly...

Tess in Oregon