Hello new to this support but not to RA

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Hello there,

well I have always avoided boards like this since I did not want to

admit that I needed someone other than my wife to talk to about this

disease, but I guess after having this crap for 3 years now and

things getting so freaking bad, i guess I decided to venture out and

see if anyone wanted to chat about this pain in the butt disease..

For me it has now developed to the point of me wishing that it would

all end, the pain is now all the time, it is in every joint in my

body, it hurts so bad I can not get out of bed like a normal person,

I have to roll to the edge and throw myself onto the floor and then

work myself to death trying to get off of the floor, this taking 15

to 20 minutes every morning before getting ready for work, it is now

also to the point where I fall whenever my knees decide they want to

give out, I can no longer trust my legs anymore nor can I trust any

part of my body anymore, some days are ok but most are not, I have

tried so many of there drugs to stop the pain and yes some might ease

it for a few days but it just returns with a vengence and kicks my

butt so much that i can not hardly move.

But still I have to work 60 hours a week to make bills and get by,

the people at work look at me funny when i cannot hardly walk and

struggle through the day,but since the wife can not work and has had

M.S. for 16 years now I am the only one making any money for us to

live on, her Goverment check is a little over 2 hundred a month and

who can live on that?

I am not looking for any sympathy i guess I am just looking for

someone to chat with about this disease, if I have bothered anyone

please frogive me, sometimes you have to get it off your chest I

guess.

Thanks\

Steve in Missouri