Guest guest Posted January 22, 2007 Report Share Posted January 22, 2007 Thank you for sharing, Sondra. I wonder if there are other moms who are depressed close to that level but just not able to say it. There is a social stigma about depression; I know I have a hard time with it. I'm glad you're able to open up & feel comfortable sharing, it helps me too. Marie (mom to Kim AZ) > > Sherry maybe but I to not fear of death for self I to fear living > more than death and wonder often how much longer before can go to the > heavens . I to fear leaving of behind of my childrens in worry who > will understand of htem like of me but not fearful of death as to me > is a good strong part of life but actually not fear own death as > never really think of it much in the sense of death I to just see it > as a time to transiton .... I to fear living because in the living it > can be of too hard and painful much of the times... not suicidal at > all right now but just sharing of it from the heart of me. It is hard > to have so few understandof you and daily get of htose stares and > such... I to just be to want to be seen as me and how I to feel God > will see of me. > > Sondra > > > In Autism_in_Girls , " gldcst " wrote: > > > > <<but now > > understand each grain is of a symbol of time and it is erasing time > > from me and so now much fearful of them/ have no understand to self > yet > > why time fears me but it does. I to understand concept of an hour > and > > time such as that as a script and could tell of the time but it > really > > maked no sense to me until this fall when my brain finally > understood > > what the hour glass was doing and the reality of it feared me. >> > > > > Sondra, this is nothing to be ashamed of or embarassed by. Everyone > fears the passing of time but most of us keep ourselves too busy to > pay attention and when we are forced to pay attention for one reason > or another most all of us fear it. You are actually perceiving > immortality and your humanity on a higher plane than the rest of us > as we are so expert in avoiding it. I can well imagine it must be > extremely painful to actually " see " it so literally. I know I see it > in the growth of my child and the changes in my body and it's > definitely not a welcome feeling. > > Sherry > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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