's song

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said I could share this. He wrote a song (music in his head). I had

him email me a copy, not sure where some " breaks " are, refrain is easy to tell

so I separated them out below.

Those of you on this list who know about 's OCD, I think you'll figure

out what this song is about. It helped me to see his struggle. Well, once I

realized it was about his OCD, I actually didn't at first read, I had to ask!

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Coming Back

by Castle

It seems like years since it all fell out

I just wanted to be gone

Away from you, away from love

All I wanted was to move on

I was so angry, I couldn't even think

It felt so easy to blame you for the brink

Of disaster I'd fallen into,

I felt so lost, so broken, my heart torn in two

One half so bitter, the other half still holding on to you

It's been so long, I feel so torn, I don't know what to do

How could something real be gone for good? How can I live without you?

Now and then, my thoughts drift off

To another place and time

When we were closer and I felt so sure

So sure that you were mine

I feel so lost now, I feel like it's too late

To ask you back now, since I pushed you away

because all the pain I carried inside,

I still look back and wish that I was on your side

I feel so alone here, I'm longing to come running back to you

It's been so long, I feel so torn, I don't know what to do

How could something real be gone for good? How can I live without you?

Is it as hopeless as it seems?

Will you still take me back although I'm still leaning

Towards all of the darkness I still hide behind?

Although I'm so careless you are still on my side

I'm still so lost, but may it not keep me from coming back to you

It's been so long, I felt so torn, I did not know what to do

How could something real be gone for good? How could I live without you?

It's been so long, I felt so torn, I did not know what to do

Sometimes when you pass on something real, it finds its way back to you

How could I ever live without you?

I am coming back to you

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