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Dear all,

I am sorry I have not posted as much as I used to. My anxiety was

getting very high and my counselor suggested I distance myself. I

have an obsession (to the ocd level) with helping people to the point

I get sick because I take on their pain. I am trying to learn ways

to help without hurting myself.

One thing I did was try and focus on something I need but have

deprived myself of. I dropped out of college for my ex and stayed

out for my children. So I thought to reapply for college would be a

great idea and so I reapplied for admission to Agnes a college

I once attended.

I am not sure if I shared this or not, but I was accepted to Agnes

and I start classes in January. I have designed my own major

(which I have not officially named) which is a combination of

neuropsychology, biopsychology and education with a minor in

philosophy. I am going for my doctorate.

I think this is the best way to learn how to help people, and how to

educate people. I want to develop curriculum friendly for autistic

children and children with learning disabilities. I hope I can make

a difference.

I am excited and nervous about returning. I am trying to convince

myself that in learning about my Asperger's that I will do better in

school than I had in the past. I am feeling a bit insecure. I keep

telling myself that Temple Grandin did it.