Re: Re: Another PANDAS update question..Chris

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Hi

I still count everything, and I write lists for everything.(can't just mark on

my calandar). I have to write everything down in multiple places.( crazy, I

know!) Sometimes, I feel like I do it just so I don't feel so overwhelmed.

Hugs

Judy

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Sent: Mon, February 8, 2010 8:43:19 PM

Subject: Re: Another PANDAS update question..

 

Hi Judy, your example is what I'm thinking of. That sudden thought you had and

then it just goes on from there.

Like with my counting. I still recall I was making some type brownies or

something that I was stirring by hand, was supposed to stir like 60 times or

something. Just sort of switched " on " and I began counting steps I took to get

from one place to another, all sorts of things. Later I went thru a period of

scrupe, a contamination/ germ thing about my mom, bad thoughts (same as &

similar to your example)...I even do some minor checking now. But then I've had

long periods with none of it bothering me. And the examples I listed weren't

altogether, just different periods of my life it began and eventually stopped

(with some work from me). (though all if it pops up now, just I can shrug it

off) But that day the counting started, that " switch " still fits, sort of like

something clicked " on " and I was counting that day and after for a period of

time and made myself eventually work on NOT counting.

> I remember when my OCD first began. I was 12, and walking down the road with

my friend who was carrying her puppy. All of a sudden a horrible thought popped

into my head. I was thinking about throwing the puppy over the bridge into the

water. Than I started thinking about squeezing the puppy. I remember wondering

why I was thinking about such an awful thing.One thing turned into another. I

still have the bad thoughts, but I can disregard them. Funny how I can manage