ANY advise would be SO appreciated!!! NEW HERE :-)

January 24, 2010

Hi, my name is . My daughter was DX with OCD and severe anxiety.

I already have spent the past 2 years learning all about my son's DX of Autism,

when he was 2. I am soooooo tired. My oldest of 3, my easy kiddo, had an onset

of worries, confessions, then within a month, bad thoughts. This started over

the summer, when she was down in Southern California with her cousins. She

called me, confessing that she lied to me about something so silly, a year or 2

earlier. That happened about 3-5 times that week. Within weeks, she was

approaching me everyday, telling me she had a bad thought. They were mostly

about me, which devastated me. I am a great, loving mom, and she would say

things like, " You look pretty mommy! " Then a minute later, tell me she had a

thought that I was ugly. Those kinds of thoughts started happening a dozen

times a day. I had her in the Pediatrician's office, then to the Neurologists,

then to a Psychologist, within a matter of weeks. Her school work went from B's

to D's and F's. It was just not her. I have had teachers tell me for the prior

2 years, that she had focus issues, and may have ADD. I never started meds,

although her Ped said I could. I didn't want to, unless she couldn't make it

without them.

Her Neurologist has her on 20mg Prozac, and 2.5 mg of Abilify. The bad thoughts

about me are gone, but she asks questions every 5 minutes, about things she

knows the answers to, and then apologizes. She tells me she loves me and wants

a hug 2-4 times an hour. Sweet, but not normal. She has a " Deer in the

headlights " look, when you ask her something, and her answers to almost

everything, end with " I think "

The thoughts came out of nowhere. Just went on a trip, and within 5 days, she

was a wreck.

I keep seeing PANDAS mentioned, but have no idea about it. I thought is was

when kids ate non edible things, like paint and dirt. Obviously I am wrong?!.

She has had some light sexual thoughts, which worry me, she has had thoughts

about me dieing if she counts backwards from 10, and told me that when I die,

she wants to also, that she wouldn't want to live without me.

Any opinions/advise, book suggestions?

I have spent every spare minute and dollar on my son's Autism, I just need a

little help, from those with experience. I went into my son's disorder blindly,

and would like some guidance here.

Thank you SOOOOOOOOOOO much!

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