Re: Ken to , from ken

[Guest guest]

, God bless you for your post to me! It means so much to me,that there ARE

people like YOU out there,who care so much, and ask so little! I am grateful to

you for your words of great comfort to me, and I Bless you for your kindness

given to me! Thank you for being my friend! Question: May I have your permission

to " add " you to my " favorites " list for crazy jokes and smiles? (All of it NEVER

meaning to be disrespectful!)

Please let me know if I may, and, again, thank you for your very

comforting words of care, and concern!

All my love to you.........ken

N McK <nlmck1551@...> wrote:

I am so sorry for your loss! Your words brought tears to my eyes!

I admire your courage for making that very difficult decision to put your dear

friend out of her misery. I know that that was a very difficult decision - one

that I would not have been able to make. As others have said, I am sure that

your dear friend was sick - that is the only explination for such a dramatic and

sudden change from her former loving personality.

I hope that you find a way to fill this void in your heart!

McK - (formerly from VA - - soon to be from Albuquerque)

Greetings, to you all...unfortunately, today was the culmination of an

act that I sadly had to ask my son to perform for me, as I just

couldn't bring myself to do.:

It started the 14th, when the V.A yet AGAIN ,in it's unfathemable

" wisdom " . again cancelled my appointment with the eye clinic, saying they

didn't have enough personnell to cover. They re-scheduled for the

following week.Actually, I realized, just now, it started earlier than

that.(I am awfully upset)I have had a strange growth on the bottom of my

right foot. I had an appt. with " dermatology, to have a biopsy done on my

leg, and when I told them about the very painful growth on my foot, the

doctor said he was not sure what it was(I suggested it might be a " bone

spur " , as I had one before)

Well, good ol doc, he numbed myfoot, and " burned off " the offending

growth. Ha! It kept hurting, and hurting, and Tammy took a look at it, and

said that it had grown BIGGER!

Today, this morning, I called them up, to excplain that whatever that

doctor

did was the wrong thing,explaining the whole situation to them. They

very promptly(VERY unusual for them!)made an appt for me later in this

sad afternoon, and when I took my shoe off, the doctor(mine) took one

look at my foot, and said my whole foot was infected!He put meon these

humongus looking antibiotics,made an appt for next week , and said if the

infection had died down, THEN he would try to do the proper thing with

my foot! I also have to have my hip x-rayed at that time, because he

thinks it is degenerating quite quickly.

But the sad part? Well, over the years, I have had many many

birds, all of which I developed a great deal of love for recieving said

love back from them in immesurable quantity. Over the last few weeks, my

little companion, my cockatiell,who was so loving to me had started to

change greatly, for no apparent reason! She turned into a raging demon!

Every time I approached her, or anybody else, for that matter, she flew

towards them and threw herself into a biting frenzy! Last week, I had

my 2 year old grand daughter over to the house, and for no apparrent

reason, flew at her, hung on with her claws, and bit and bit!

Not only did it terrify her, it terrified ME! Something was

obviously very very wrong with her. Over the last few weeks, I have tried

everything I know to " cure " her of this strange behaviour! Never have I

ever had a bird just " turn " for no reason! My hands and arms are scored

with deep bites, and today, as I approached her cage,which is always

open, so she can come and go as she pleased, she flew at my face, my eyes!

Earlier in the day, after my visit with the V.A., Tammy and I

stopped by a friend of ours, and she strongly reminded me my immune system

is NOT like a " normal " person, and that is probably why some of the

bites have become infected, because her littlt claws pick up...well, you

know....

It would have been cruel of me to just turn her loose, as she

couldn't feed herself in the wild. she would slowly starve, or become a

" victim " .

I could no longer take the chance that she would hurt one of my

little grandchildren.So I prayed, and prayed........and asked my son to

" help " me out. I just didn't have it in me to " dispose " of her, like so

much garbage.

And I certainly would NOT GIVE HER TO SOMEONE ELSE, TO BE BIT, AND

BIT......

So, tonite, my friends, silly as it seems(some would

say " well,she's just an animal " ) my heart is hurting, and broken, because upon

my direction,

having asked my son to do it for me, as I had loved her too much to do

the Dirty Deed, well...she is now at whatever peace God has awaiting

His animal friends. Brad buried her, I don't know where, and don't WANT

to know, and he took all evidence of her life with me out of the house

right then and there.Her cage. Her stool her cage sat on. Her toys. I

know That I sound " off it " , for being so silly, and sentimental....but

she had ceased to be the loving thing she was, and had become dangerous.

Call me silly. Call me too emotional. That's just the way I am

built. I am broken hearted at her loss, guilty feeling, because it was by MY

direction

she was killed. There IS no " nice " way to put it.....it's what I had

done.

Now, there is an empty place where once she filled my heart with

joy,and I doubt sleep will come easily for me tonite.The place where once

her " home " stood, is now an empty reminder of what was, once.

Should I be condemmed for this act? I don't know.I killed the only

creature that once gave me companionship, while my Lady was working,

helping me to fight the lonliness. I am not even sure I have the right

for any consoling words....all I can say , in my defense, is she had

changed ,for inexplicable reasons, turning quite dangerous,...not much of

an excuse, I guess.I DO know, that I AM broken hearted , and probably

will never have another bird again. I didn't even have the guts to do it

myself...I had to ask my son. Woof!

Will you, in your prayers tonite, please remember

me....and a once beautiful little companion called " eaglebeak?' I thank you

all.

And I love you all.

regretfully

yours........ken

---------------------------------

for Good

Click here to donate to the Hurricane Katrina relief effort.

[Guest guest]

, God bless you for your post to me! It means so much to me,that there ARE

people like YOU out there,who care so much, and ask so little! I am grateful to

you for your words of great comfort to me, and I Bless you for your kindness

given to me! Thank you for being my friend! Question: May I have your permission

to " add " you to my " favorites " list for crazy jokes and smiles? (All of it NEVER

meaning to be disrespectful!)

Please let me know if I may, and, again, thank you for your very

comforting words of care, and concern!

All my love to you.........ken

N McK <nlmck1551@...> wrote:

I am so sorry for your loss! Your words brought tears to my eyes!

I admire your courage for making that very difficult decision to put your dear

friend out of her misery. I know that that was a very difficult decision - one

that I would not have been able to make. As others have said, I am sure that

your dear friend was sick - that is the only explination for such a dramatic and

sudden change from her former loving personality.

I hope that you find a way to fill this void in your heart!

McK - (formerly from VA - - soon to be from Albuquerque)

Greetings, to you all...unfortunately, today was the culmination of an

act that I sadly had to ask my son to perform for me, as I just

couldn't bring myself to do.:

It started the 14th, when the V.A yet AGAIN ,in it's unfathemable

" wisdom " . again cancelled my appointment with the eye clinic, saying they

didn't have enough personnell to cover. They re-scheduled for the

following week.Actually, I realized, just now, it started earlier than

that.(I am awfully upset)I have had a strange growth on the bottom of my

right foot. I had an appt. with " dermatology, to have a biopsy done on my

leg, and when I told them about the very painful growth on my foot, the

doctor said he was not sure what it was(I suggested it might be a " bone

spur " , as I had one before)

Well, good ol doc, he numbed myfoot, and " burned off " the offending

growth. Ha! It kept hurting, and hurting, and Tammy took a look at it, and

said that it had grown BIGGER!

Today, this morning, I called them up, to excplain that whatever that

doctor

did was the wrong thing,explaining the whole situation to them. They

very promptly(VERY unusual for them!)made an appt for me later in this

sad afternoon, and when I took my shoe off, the doctor(mine) took one

look at my foot, and said my whole foot was infected!He put meon these

humongus looking antibiotics,made an appt for next week , and said if the

infection had died down, THEN he would try to do the proper thing with

my foot! I also have to have my hip x-rayed at that time, because he

thinks it is degenerating quite quickly.

But the sad part? Well, over the years, I have had many many

birds, all of which I developed a great deal of love for recieving said

love back from them in immesurable quantity. Over the last few weeks, my

little companion, my cockatiell,who was so loving to me had started to

change greatly, for no apparent reason! She turned into a raging demon!

Every time I approached her, or anybody else, for that matter, she flew

towards them and threw herself into a biting frenzy! Last week, I had

my 2 year old grand daughter over to the house, and for no apparrent

reason, flew at her, hung on with her claws, and bit and bit!

Not only did it terrify her, it terrified ME! Something was

obviously very very wrong with her. Over the last few weeks, I have tried

everything I know to " cure " her of this strange behaviour! Never have I

ever had a bird just " turn " for no reason! My hands and arms are scored

with deep bites, and today, as I approached her cage,which is always

open, so she can come and go as she pleased, she flew at my face, my eyes!

Earlier in the day, after my visit with the V.A., Tammy and I

stopped by a friend of ours, and she strongly reminded me my immune system

is NOT like a " normal " person, and that is probably why some of the

bites have become infected, because her littlt claws pick up...well, you

know....

It would have been cruel of me to just turn her loose, as she

couldn't feed herself in the wild. she would slowly starve, or become a

" victim " .

I could no longer take the chance that she would hurt one of my

little grandchildren.So I prayed, and prayed........and asked my son to

" help " me out. I just didn't have it in me to " dispose " of her, like so

much garbage.

And I certainly would NOT GIVE HER TO SOMEONE ELSE, TO BE BIT, AND

BIT......

So, tonite, my friends, silly as it seems(some would

say " well,she's just an animal " ) my heart is hurting, and broken, because upon

my direction,

having asked my son to do it for me, as I had loved her too much to do

the Dirty Deed, well...she is now at whatever peace God has awaiting

His animal friends. Brad buried her, I don't know where, and don't WANT

to know, and he took all evidence of her life with me out of the house

right then and there.Her cage. Her stool her cage sat on. Her toys. I

know That I sound " off it " , for being so silly, and sentimental....but

she had ceased to be the loving thing she was, and had become dangerous.

Call me silly. Call me too emotional. That's just the way I am

built. I am broken hearted at her loss, guilty feeling, because it was by MY

direction

she was killed. There IS no " nice " way to put it.....it's what I had

done.

Now, there is an empty place where once she filled my heart with

joy,and I doubt sleep will come easily for me tonite.The place where once

her " home " stood, is now an empty reminder of what was, once.

Should I be condemmed for this act? I don't know.I killed the only

creature that once gave me companionship, while my Lady was working,

helping me to fight the lonliness. I am not even sure I have the right

for any consoling words....all I can say , in my defense, is she had

changed ,for inexplicable reasons, turning quite dangerous,...not much of

an excuse, I guess.I DO know, that I AM broken hearted , and probably

will never have another bird again. I didn't even have the guts to do it

myself...I had to ask my son. Woof!

Will you, in your prayers tonite, please remember

me....and a once beautiful little companion called " eaglebeak?' I thank you

all.

And I love you all.

regretfully

yours........ken

---------------------------------

for Good

Click here to donate to the Hurricane Katrina relief effort.