Happy New Year

[Guest guest]

It's been a long time since I posted---but I'm lurking and reading

messages. Happy New Year to you girls!!

I e-mailed a doctor at UCSD this morning regarding my situation and

was amazed that he called me almost right away. This doctor was

involved a while back in some studies on silicone----even though he

admitted he was one that thought it was a possible problem he gave me

a bunch of talk on the studies. He did say that there was no more

funding or studies and there would definitely be no more in the

future.

He suggested that I (if I were his wife) do not mention silicone or

my implants to any doctor in the future unless they specifically ask

me about it. He said that if I keep mentioning it and questioning

that I would be " labled " and the very doctors that are trying to help

me would no longer be willing to do so. Soooooo, I will try and do

that. After boo hooing about it, I decided he is probably right. He

was extremely nice and very kind.

My white count and lymphocyte count continue to rise but I actually

feel pretty good. I always think back to how sick I was for almost

two years before I had my implants out. I had days when I couldn't

even get up. I am now functional and refusing to give up. I'm going

out kicking. I gave up my anti-depressants--I'm tired of feeling

like the victim. I'm doing more to entertain " me " and trying to live

every day--one day at a time.

I wish you all peace with yourselves and a very happy New Year.

Warm hugs, Phyllis:-)