Hi Ya Ms. Suzie Q

[Guest guest]

Honey - I keep telling you that you are still going great clear as a bell.

I know it is very hard for you to believe now while in esld and experiencing it.

You and I have been very close friends for many many years. You know I tell it exactly like it is to and for everyone so trust me you are going great.

Brain may be fuzzy may be slower than usual confused and you but it does come and go and brains light switch off and on again.

Don't fear it or what you may say do or type in emails or in group. We understand esld accept it and you for who you are a great gal friend supporter of people with a great big heart soul and a weird but great sense of humor we love too and you.

Don't isolate yourself and from us in group and by personal emails.

Don't live in fear of what may happen what you may say or do or may not and limit yourself fearing you may say or write weird things or we will not understand you or you may insult us.

Honey you can't we know the real you and understand that too.

Your great sense of style and humor is now needed by you more than ever and by us..

Let it rip and when clearer laugh at what you may have done or said not mad upset with yourself but laugh with you and for you.

I made it though all these years esld - pre post tp by keeping a great sense of and wicked weird humor about it all and me. I embraced it all even the brain fog used it too pulled off got away with some great stuff had a hell of a good time too. Poor confused Mom. Poor Mom hell I knew what I was doing and had a great time too. I didn't fear what I may have said or done when confused nothing I could do about it but go with it go with the flow than laugh at it all and me when I cleared again.

We knew the severity understood accepted my dx esld but even than and weird Mom stuff and even being wheeled into transplant we still loved laughed enjoyed each other. The 1st thing they did when we all arrived at the hosp for my tp after all the hugs and kisses still laughing was they put me in a clean sterile room with a big shower for 2 and a big nurse in there with me scrubbing me from head to toe with orange betadine surgical scrub. Family had to stay behind the line when they brought me in for transplant than went up to family waiting room. Out I walked head to toe orange with scrub gown cap and booties. I did a fashion show and walk for family before hoping onto gurney. Yes I felt like hell but that didn't matter.

The last thing I heard from family and Mel's big mouth was - Look Mom's an orange smurfette and entire family laughing. That stayed with me wheeled into tp and me still laughing and cutting-up with Dr's and staff until under anesthesia. Can we do your tp now or what - ok let's go. Ohhhhhhhh good shit zzzzzzzzz.

Our minds - emotions - acceptance - positive attitudes - hope - faith - strong wills to survive - how we perceive things - how well we accept things can still keep our sense of humor laugh enjoy life no matter what is key. It all medically does play many rolls parts in our recovery best survival quality of lives and especially before going under general anesthesia and for transplant.

Honey that is what We purposely created this group for open to people in all stages. A safe online support family of friends that do understand and with respect acceptance of all members in all stages for everyone best support and 1st hand knowledge of our experiences in all stages.

We in late and esld are the best teachers supporters personal experiences knowledge base for others with hep c and in earlier stages.

Honey let it rip and never stop enjoying and laughing.

Love and Hugs

Deb and RD