- Your Cry For Help!

[Guest guest]

Hi ,

I'm sure you've had allot of loving responses from the ladies in this support group and I'm equally sure there isn't anything I can say that you haven't already heard. But I just read your message (I'm a little behind with my email) and could not go any further until I responded to your cry for help.

I can tell you, I understand what you're saying - because I fight everyday "not" to give up, but that's not what you want to hear. So if I may, there's something I'ld like to share with you and maybe this will help you understand why I haven't "yet" given into my own pain and despair. This was written by Graham and it's titled:

"A New Perspective"

I have a friend who during the Depression lost his job, a fortune, a wife, and a home. But he tenaciously held to his faith--the only thing he had left. One day he stopped to watch some men doing stonework on a huge church. One of them was chiseling a triangular piece of stone. "What are you going to do with that?" asked my friend. The workman said, "See that little opening away up there near the spire? Well, I'm shaping this down here, so it will fit in up there."

Tears filled the eyes of my friend as he walked away, for it seemed that God had spoken through the workman to explain his ordeal through which he was passing, "I'm shaping you down here, so you'll fit in up there."

I guess what I'm trying to share with you , is that God's timing is perfect, not our's and if I can believe in Him through Jesus Christ His Son, to save my wretched soul from Eternal Damnation, then how in the world can I not believe that He will walk with us, carry us, comfort us and love us throughout our lives--until He decides to call us home?

In regard to "blaming" yourself, please don't do that. You are giving those who have hurt you, just too much power and they don't deserve that! It doesn't matter if you knew the implants could make you sick. The Doctor who put them in you, knew it also, not including so many others (involved in this atrocity) that are too numerous to mention.

God loves you and so do we! You are not alone and never will be!

Love and Hugs.............

MissBoop0827@... wrote: Hello here, disbled about 2 years from salines. I kmew they could make me sick, I am to blame. i deserve this. I have seen the show, filled with women with salines who were justa as sick with the silicone. i swore than , never to do it, it was to dangerous!! In the beggining of getting sick I felt like i would die, now wish I would of. I could not get down the stairs from my apt I was so sick. I still have many more bad days, where I feel like death. It has been two years. I don't think I am going to make it. I have tried every herb vitamen, detox, was 100 percent natural my first year, not even an asprin. Nothing gives me any relief. I am at the point where I have decided where I no longer want to be alive. I know in my heart I will take my life, and I think it is coming up soon! It might be week or months , bug i have been thinking about this or a year, ever dau. I have made up my mind to be at peace in heaven.I will never be able to work again(this is fact I have a disease -chronic), Death is a personal choice over suffering. I have no life, no money , no support(except for my sister and her family). I cannot enjoy anything, becuase whatever I do I just feel so awful. I have lost ALL my friends, people who I have been in their wedding parties, and people I have known for 16 years of my life. I considered myself a person who has always helped people in need, although I have not always been an a angel in life myself. It is Christmas, and I remember all the fun parties I used to go to. I will never have a boyfriend, because when I was bueatiul on the inside and out, I could never find one, so why the hell would anyone want to be with a vegetable. It is ovious that my 8 good friends have deserted me , because when you have not use to people, and are unable to do fun stuff, knowone wants to know you/ Also I am unable to have sex because of gynicalogical problems...so what the hell man would want that. I wanted to have children and a family...I quess not..I dontt believe in time i will get bettter, I have a disease! I do nott want to live in isolation everyday, watchin t,v. I would rather be a peace with GOD....anyplance is better than here. I have dug my grave, and now I must lay in it by myself...I am to BLAME...I knew about the illness' I was so bueatiful, and athletic, now it is gone forever, and i have excepted it. My life is over, I will die ike this, old and alone...I am isolated everyday of my life,a nd will be for the rest oof my life...I am going to take my life, one day maybe tommorrow, maybe next week, maybe next month. what a stupid Unneeded mistake I made. i should have put that money toourd shcooll, or a makeover. Where are all my friends, they called me like crazy the first yeer I was sick...aand I NEvER complained about my disability or problems...I used to think people were cruel and self centered, but Inow I know the truth...I by no means feel sorry for myselfl, I balme myself, knowing I was not in good health my whole life, and that I had Major allergie.I am serious I have made up my mind, and know exactly how to do it...So if someting happens and you never heear form me again...you kow where I am, at peace with GoD.....I do not believe in hell.............xoooxoTERESA Miss Boop0827@... Thanks for listening