Happy New Year

[Guest guest]

I am back from California! It was great to get away, to see my

daughter and friends, relatives, etc etc, however the court scene was

an utter nightmare, my ex husband lied, my daughter also lied, seems

she has learned much from him, it was horrible to say the least but

another thing that I can partially blame on implant illness, had I

not been so ill as to not be able to care for my daughter for 2 years

she would never have grown so attached to her father, and what is

even more sickening is that the court systems there seem to think

that if a 9 year old doesn't want to go live with one parent she

shouldn't have to, and the even more dispicable thing is that at this

time she isn't even really going to have to come to Idaho to see me,

it is sort of like, well when she is ready to go.

My ex husband is evil, anyhow, I have accepted that maybe for now it

is all meant to be this way I have to accept it, he is ordered to

take her to therapy which she really needs.

I feel that if I back off now eventually she will want to be here

with us. We had a great short visit and then her dad stepped in and

felt that we were getting to close so bam, that was it.

ANyhow other than that I had a blast, I met up with all my old

friends, went to Carmel and Monterey, Sausalito and San Francisco and

visited Marin and took amazing pics. we had a great time with my

parents and ate at Clint Eastwoods fabulous restaraunt in Carmel by

the sea, it was neat.

The weather was not so hot, mostly rain, but not too bad for a few

days and it was so so so nice to see my mom and dad and they were so

happy to see how much my health has improved.

It was freaky to go to places where i used to have the brain fog and

not have any at all, and in many ways I feel I have turned a major

corner in this illness as my head is so clear and my pain minimal,

course I have not worked out for a week, so have to do that tomorrow.

The flights were nice, uneventful, things are good, I have to accept

that for at least the next 3 months my daughter is firmly under her

fathers control, in 3 months there will be a review of her therapy

and we will see what happens from there.

Well I have rambled on and on, anyhow, great to be back to my group,

I have over 100 messages in my box so it will be awhile before I go

through them all, hey did everybody get what they wanted for

Christmas? I have been thinking of you all and hoping things are

well, it is very good to be home again, at least until my next major

trip(HAWAII) yeah can't wait for that one, gotta work on my abs now

LOL

Happy New Year,

Love and Blessings,