Guest guest Posted October 15, 2005 Report Share Posted October 15, 2005 Welcome to the group . I hope you will feel as welcomed asn comforted as I did when I joined this group. It is a safe haven for those of us in pain that others can never understand, and that makes me feel, understood and cared about. I hope you will find some suggestions from members on your RA. --------------------------------- Music Unlimited - Access over 1 million songs. Try it free. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 16, 2005 Report Share Posted October 16, 2005 Good Sunday to All! And a hearty welcome to all the Newbies! I just want to add on to 's post that this is a safe haven for those of us in pain that others can never understand and I do feel cared about and I know that I am definitely not alone. I live alone but all I have do do is log on and read and I am grateful for each and everyone of you. I still have alot of pain, physical but let me tell you that the emotional pain of my daughter removing herself from my life has left me feeling like a big part of me died inside. I still find myself pleading with God to please let this not be. I hope each day that she will call me. It's been over 4 months since I have seen her. Dealing with the pain from losing her, as we were so close, always,is so hard. Unbearable at times. I feel my heart literally hurting so much I feel like I could die from the grief. I will never understand how she could do this to me. She just recieved her PHD in immunology and she knows what I have to live with. She knows all to well. How could she still turn her back on her mother who she claimed she loved so much. Why? I can deal with the physical pain anyday now. The pain from my daughter has changed me. I don't like myself. I am existing but I am not living.I am breathing but I do not feel alive. I have this emptyness that leaves me feeling numb. I keep to myself all the time now. I am beyond depressed. I am like the walking dead. I have no joy. I read the funnies and I don't laugh. I sigh alot. I have no appetite. I was feeling so sick that my son on the west coast made me promise I'd go to the emergency room. Lucky me...staph infection! 10 days of antibiotics. I have not taken them every 8 hours as i was supposed too. I sleep between 16-20 hours a day. I tried. I need a miracle. I need something. I'm sorry for all of you who are going through your own nightmares. I sleep and i have peace. I wake up and the nightmare continues. The physical pain is nothing compared to the emotional pain. I know I am not alone. I know many of you have family who have broken your heart beyond belief. God help us all. I'll keep praying as that is all I can do. I fall on my knees and cry out to God and pour out what is left of my heart. I still cry myself to sleep. It's either that or I'm numb. I wonder when it will end. When and if I will ever feel alive again. I thank you all for being a part of this group as it is truly a life- saving support group for me and I'm sure many of you feel the same way about this group. This group that is now a very important part of my life. God bless you all. I wish for you all love, joy & peace. SIncerly & with blessings, Marie -- In , C <bravewmn@y...> wrote: > > Welcome to the group . I hope you will feel as welcomed asn comforted as I did when I joined this group. It is a safe haven for those of us in pain that others can never understand, and that makes me feel, understood and cared about. I hope you will find some suggestions from members on your RA. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 16, 2005 Report Share Posted October 16, 2005 Good Sunday to All! And a hearty welcome to all the Newbies! I just want to add on to 's post that this is a safe haven for those of us in pain that others can never understand and I do feel cared about and I know that I am definitely not alone. I live alone but all I have do do is log on and read and I am grateful for each and everyone of you. I still have alot of pain, physical but let me tell you that the emotional pain of my daughter removing herself from my life has left me feeling like a big part of me died inside. I still find myself pleading with God to please let this not be. I hope each day that she will call me. It's been over 4 months since I have seen her. Dealing with the pain from losing her, as we were so close, always,is so hard. Unbearable at times. I feel my heart literally hurting so much I feel like I could die from the grief. I will never understand how she could do this to me. She just recieved her PHD in immunology and she knows what I have to live with. She knows all to well. How could she still turn her back on her mother who she claimed she loved so much. Why? I can deal with the physical pain anyday now. The pain from my daughter has changed me. I don't like myself. I am existing but I am not living.I am breathing but I do not feel alive. I have this emptyness that leaves me feeling numb. I keep to myself all the time now. I am beyond depressed. I am like the walking dead. I have no joy. I read the funnies and I don't laugh. I sigh alot. I have no appetite. I was feeling so sick that my son on the west coast made me promise I'd go to the emergency room. Lucky me...staph infection! 10 days of antibiotics. I have not taken them every 8 hours as i was supposed too. I sleep between 16-20 hours a day. I tried. I need a miracle. I need something. I'm sorry for all of you who are going through your own nightmares. I sleep and i have peace. I wake up and the nightmare continues. The physical pain is nothing compared to the emotional pain. I know I am not alone. I know many of you have family who have broken your heart beyond belief. God help us all. I'll keep praying as that is all I can do. I fall on my knees and cry out to God and pour out what is left of my heart. I still cry myself to sleep. It's either that or I'm numb. I wonder when it will end. When and if I will ever feel alive again. I thank you all for being a part of this group as it is truly a life- saving support group for me and I'm sure many of you feel the same way about this group. This group that is now a very important part of my life. God bless you all. I wish for you all love, joy & peace. SIncerly & with blessings, Marie -- In , C <bravewmn@y...> wrote: > > Welcome to the group . I hope you will feel as welcomed asn comforted as I did when I joined this group. It is a safe haven for those of us in pain that others can never understand, and that makes me feel, understood and cared about. I hope you will find some suggestions from members on your RA. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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