Life Has Been A Mess

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Group sorry that I have not been on much over the past couple of months. I was

dealing with 's pneumonia,open wound on face, and trying to place him

someone where to let the wound heal. No sooner than I got him placed in an

autism unit that they were supposed to keep him safe I found out my husband had

been cheating on me. According to our phone records this started in Nov. right

before Thanksgiving. I had been feeling neglected an unloved for some time. Of

course I turned to him and asked how we could fix our marital issues. I told him

I felt like a roommate and that I needed more. He said " I just don't have it in

me. " What a blow that made me feel really uncomfortable and I was not sure what

to do or say with that kind of a statement. I just kind of let it go but

mentally I was hurt. I noticed he had been acting to sure of himself in the way

he talked to me. Then right after was secured in the hospital I asked him

what days he was off work the next week in front of our daughter. He said WED. &

Thurs. Monday of that week we had a fight. Tues. Morning I got up at 4:30 when

he got up and left before him. I hid in the neighborhood and when I saw his

truck go by I started to follow him. He was not heading to work but the

expressway. At 4:30 in the morning there is no place to hide and no cars on the

road. My husband spotted me and turned his truck around. He then pulled into a

gas station. When I asked him where he was going he said " oh I knew you left

early from the house and were going to be watching me so I turned that way on

purpose. That was bullshit. I then followed him to work and then hid my car

after 10 minutes. My stupid husband gets in his truck to leave heading for the

freeway again.I found out he was not scheduled to work that day. He lied to my

daughter and myself about his off days which were actually Tues. and Wed. I

checked our cell phone records and he was talking to some women from another

city in Ky for many hours,many days. He went to that City and I tracked him by

his cell phone. I new exactly the address where he was. The lady was an old

friend I know and I new who she was. She lost her husband to a heart attack. My

husband, her husband and herself had all been friends 22 yrs ago before we got

married. Ulis and I were high school sweat-hearts that broke up and were apart

for 8 yrs before we got married. I always thought our relationship was meant to

be but actually it has been nothing but lies, hurt,money issues and fighting

constantly about .I am pissed that he did this because I could have had an

affair but turning away from a relationship is not the answers. We live in such

a throw away society people just give up and don't even try to work things out.

I am so upset. I started the process of filing for a divorce and he told me he

was sorry and that he ended the relationship. He truly seems sorry but I am hurt

beyond repair.Cyndi