Re: Angry phase of my RA/Judi

October 22, 2005

JUDI,

Thank you so much for your support and words of encouragement and

giving me permission to be angry. I think I was actually feeling

guilty for feeling angry which is ridiculous. We all get angry

sometimes. I love what you did with your grandson. I think I can

at least sit outside today (it is a beautiful fall day) as long as I

am dressed warmly and watch the kids play in the leaves. It will at

least make me feel like I am living a little, LOL. I am trying to

maintain my sense of humour, but I do find that venting this anger

is really helping. Quiet acceptance certainly was not working for

me. I keep praying for a cure as well for all of our autoimmune

diseases, not just my RA. Again, thanks for your support. Without

you, I would be nuts I am pretty sure.

Thanks again,

Tracie

>

> HI Tracie,

>

> Sorry you are going through such a rough phase right now, but

believe

> me, being angry is the BEST thing you can do! It is better than

> quiet acceptance, because it motivates you to do whatever you can

to

> make your life better, whether it is reading, sharing on this

board,

> talking to your rheumy (sounds like your primary is a jerk!) or

what.

>

> When I first found out I had Dercum's, I was (and still am!) mad

> because there is so little treatment, no research, and of course,

no

> cure yet. But I refuse to give in or give up, no matter how bad

it

> gets. Wednesday I let my little grandson rake leaves and cover me

> up, so I was still outside when it was nice, just not working as

hard

> as I used to. You'll find your personal tolerance level, and with

> proper medication, as a says, you will get some relief. You

> might even find a whole new person inside you, with new and

exciting

> things to do and see and learn. Life is definitely not over yet!

>

> Take care,

> Judi

>

October 22, 2005