Update on Marriage situation

[Guest guest]

Today group I sent this in letter form to my husband and then I realized it was

a poem. I have been married for 22 yr to my highschool sweetheart. Not

everything ends in a fairy tale just remember. We were apart 8 yrs when we got

back together to get married. I thought our lives were meant to be together but

our life has really been an uphill climb. Recently I found out he was having an

affair that started in Nov right before Thanksgiving. We have been going to

marriage counseling and trying to make it work. I believed that he was really

sorry but I am having trust issues and feel the need to track his every move

even though the women lives and hour and 1/2 away from us. He cannot just see

her anytime because she lives in another town. Thank God. He is apologizing to

me and holding me everynight but if I bring up how I feel or start crying he may

even go to sleep. That hurts me. I don't think I can live this way anymore and I

am scared to leave not knowing how I will make it on my own. This is the letter

I sent to him:

My life will matter to someone it just does not matter to " U "

My broken heart will matter to someone it just does not matter to " U "

There is someone out there who can be honest, loving and does not want to hurt

me but it just isn't " u "

" U " are the one I wanted those things to be with but " U " showed me it just isn't

so.

The only difference between you and a physical abuser is that everyone can see

the physical abuse.

No one can see what you do to me not even you, and then you just apologize like

that will make everything ok.

Well I am taking my life back, and I am not letting you verbally hit me with

mean attacks.

I want someone to love me and not abuse me anymore. Someone will love me and

want whats best for me it just does not matter to " U " .

Cyndi Burns